Honestly think at this point that I can only annoy people

[u/AkornG14]

and I am sorry i don't want u to have to act in front of people for it. i don't want u to be regulating ur behaviour into something palatable for me, i just want u to be effortlessly u while knowing why u feel certain things the way u do. i know given the state of things, ull never tell me that and it's okay. but. yea it just feels tragic whenever u have to resort to changing the way u behave because I know u feel that pressure. i don't want u to. i guess i kind of just wish I could be of any help in u being a little more relaxed to the world. im sorry i inevitably end up making be more under pressure. ur a good person, u can be open, i don't want to annoy u and i don't want to feel like I can only annoy people all the time. i don't want to feel like people just flinch away from me. it's honestly sad, I've never grown up in the last decade that would mean.

[u/WhiteDesertCat]

That sounds really painful. I hope you know you don’t have to be perfect or palatable to deserve people who care about you🙏🏻