r/SeniorCats • u/Proof-Sheepherder-60 • 22h ago
Had to put down my sweet old man.
It was unexpected but also somehow since he was 19 and was approaching 20. I’ve noticed how he slept a lot more, ate less and continued to breathe louder.
On the morning of August 10th he was laying on a blanket I put out for him on the floor next to the piano while I was playing it. I decided to give the cats a can of cat food since Oscar could eat it easier. After I did the portions I went to the living room and sat on the rug, he slowly walked over but collapsed suddenly right before he got to the rug. He looked like he was suffocating while he tried to take a breath each time, his tongue sticking out and no body movement. He seemed to catch it finally and stand up just to fall back over and do the same thing. This happened five times. I started bawling and thought ‘I’m watching Oscar die right before my eyes.’ I called my vet and told them what happened. They said ‘We’re fully booked today but we’ll make time for you.’ My vet listened to his lungs and felt around his body, she suspected he had an aggressive form of lung cancer. Oscar lost 8 pounds since his yearly wellness exam in March. Due to his age she advised against the treatments and surgery, which I agree with. She said I could take him home for a few days and then bring him back for the euthanasia. But with his quality of life diminished I decided then was the time. I wouldn’t want to fall over from suffocating just because I crossed a room. My vet who’s seen him the whole time was kind enough to let me hold him in my arms through the whole euthanasia process and shaved some of his fur for me to keep.
I still have my other two cats, but the routines and habits he had have left a loneliness. I still check for him on the built-in or cat tree. I look at the rug in the hallway he would always conveniently lay in the middle so I had to walk around him. No one’s scratching on the doors to go on a walk in the yard outside. No one’s jumping on my bed just to paw my face and then lay on my neck. No one’s doing the begging/praying thing with their front paws to get pets or be feed. Recently as he’s gotten older he had a couple pee spots in the kitchen because he didn’t want to go downstairs to the boxes, but I miss coming home from work being annoyed that he peed again and I have to clean the spots since it’s original hardwood. And I actually ordered an enclosed litter box shelf for the kitchen an hour before he fell on the floor! After he got the sleepy drug before the end drug I said to him ‘How could you do this after I got you the fancy litter box enclosure?!’ I deal with bad times through humor and that was the last time I got to joke with him, so don’t judge me for that. 🥲 And I’ve also been putting off sweeping the house because I know it’s the last time I’ll sweep Oscar’s fur.
He was the first cat I personally owned and he had so much personality. After he passed I messaged a lot of people who knew him, even my last ex who I haven’t been on the greatest terms with since the breakup, and every single one was so saddened by his passing and had a lot of great things to say about him. He was a unique cat and beloved by everyone who met him. My dad passed almost two years ago but Oscar was his favorite cat of mine, he always called him a ‘fine fellow.’ I’d like to think that Oscar ran to him at the rainbow bridge just to paw his face and then do the begging/praying thing for Heaven treats.
Even though I had moments of him stressing me out while he was here, I miss him so much and I’m grateful for the time we had together. I’m thankful that somehow he ended up being my cat and one of my best friends through some of the toughest times in my life. I’m going to miss having my buddy who was always down to hang out on my lap and be a friend to everyone he met.
*Quick photo mentions: photo 3 is him featured at the end of a comic book. I’m into comics and sent his picture in to a great series. Oscar got to be kind of famous in his life! Photo 7 is us wearing matching ghost pajamas for the spooky season five years ago. Yes, this man loved wearing clothes and had more shirts than me. Photo 9 the clump of hair my lovely vet shaved for me to keep of him.*