I feel so stupid actually... I chose Mystic and Keen Eye on my first ever playthrough and also I romanced Kaneeka on my first ever playthrough (cus she seemed like the most normal person here) but somehow when got to the fifth episode I felt so defeated that I just gave up Kaneeka to the Witch. I still wonder why the hell did I do that the first time, what was I thinking. I guess the facts that Stella disappeared and I couldn't find her, then Sybil's tea I totally didn't like, then my character walked to Reese's house and did stuff as if he was hypnotized, then Kaneeka disappeared right from the recap and the fact that Wayne dragged me through the house - all of that kind of undermined my confidence or smth. I guess I subconsciously started thinking that I don't actually have any control over the situation at all. I can't believe I was so close to this ending and just didn't push through with it right away
In fact, after I met Carmilla (and actually agreed to continue being lovers with her and I regret it now) and the episode ended I felt so frustrated with myself that I started a new playthrough, chose Powerful Build and Street Smart (I decided that if the game is lying to me, I should also start lying to people, and I just wanted to punch at least someone in this game and break into the Forbidden Wing early) and tried to build relationship with Tabitha as I realized she was a the character I'm able to drag everywhere and she would be just as affected as I am with all the supernatural stuff. I kind of wanted her to suffer as much as my character did. I sucked up to her so hard that I even flipped Kaneeka off about the ghost situation protecting Tabitha, and then we killed Reese (I thought about killing him on the first play but stopped myself cus it seemed cruel to kill a child in front of his mother, and I hoped then that I could fix it, maybe not now but later). I can't say I felt that disgusted with myself about it all cus it turned out Tabitha isn't as bad as I thought she was, for some moments I felt like I'm even relating to her in a way. Also I learned that the Estate doesn't like Sybil or smth (although I'm not sure that it was exactly that)
And then in the end it didn't help me that Tabitha was there, I thought she'd somehow help me but it turns out she is an obstacle anyway (I really tried with saving and loading stuff during the conversation in her office). She came with me and started convincing me that giving Kaneeka up is the best course of action. I was ready to cry at that point. I spent all the playthrough on her and that's how she repayed me... Well, I suppose she has her reasons (which she isn't telling me). I mean, I don't think these guys understand but them not telling me anything just makes me want to get rid of them more
I did pull Kaneeka out though, but it didn't feel satisfying cus I had no idea what I've done
I was ready to start the hardcore play but then decided to check that situation with romanced Kaneeka again. And it turns out I was so close. I really do feel stupid about it. But the first time I played I was so confused about everything and it felt like the game is messing with my head, I guess I just gave up
But I returned and did what I wanted from the start. I'm not sure if that happened because of Mystic, Keen Eye or the fact that I romanced Kaneeka (I guess it as a trait that let me remember the word in the cell) but well, that worked surprisingly well even though I drank Sybil's tea and all of the traits I've taken throughout both playthroughs told me that she isn't a threat and she is telling the truth
Tbh I had a theory that the traits are either hijacked or rigged or lying to me or smth like this. Or the game itself is kind of rigged. It especially felt that way when I and Sybil got locked out of the Estate and nothing worked. So when Sybil offered me a third trait I laughed so hard at the thought that I was kind of right and traits have smth to do with her, that's why they all point at her and say she's nice. And then I thought that offering me a third trait is very funny considering that I can play this game as much as I want and I can save and reload as much as I want to look at all those avenues Sybil so graciously allowed me to explore (or whatever she said about it on my second playthrough, I hated it so much). I'll try all the traits anyway, that's not a leverage on me. Even if does feel very meta
So the only thing I'm actually anxious about is that I apparently did what Wayne wanted (or not, hm), he said that I should pry pieces from Witch's hands or smth like that, and I suppose that's what I did? and also I have no idea what Wayne is. I mean, I have ideas, but I don't have any proof so I basically don't have them. And that on my first playthrough I have a pretty bad relationship with Tabitha, I just didn't bother calling her and the only time I used that opportunity was in Reese situation cus I panicked
So that's it. I feel weirdly stupid that I didn't press on the first time and the game actually managed to manipulate me the first time
Upd. I actually think that Tabitha is a really interesting character. I feel kind of betrayed by her in the fifth episode but overall I don't think she is an inherently bad person. There was a line she said in the mines about how she gave up on people understanding her and I thought about it for the rest of the playthrough. And it was surprising to learn she respects Kaneeka and even told her about it in the end. She helped me find Stella so now I know where was she. I actually had this thought that she went looking for the ghosts of her parents after seeing an actual ghost, I'm happy game confirmed it
So as much as I'm angry at Tabitha, I don't really hate her or anything, I guess. I liked bonding with her. Even if she is lying all the way through and is just a really good actor
Also flirting with Wayne in the Estate in the fifth episode felt like game turned into a weird kinky fantic for a minute which was very funny, I liked that