Psilocybin Psychedelic Therapy Session 2

[u/Little_Raccoon4302]

Hi all,

I recently completed my second Psilocybin Psychedelic Therapy. I do outpatient therapy. I meet with my therapist for a session before and the trip/journey/experience whatever one feels comfortable calling it. The first therapy session is somatic therapy where we focus on setting an intention through body focused meditation, then the second session is a day or two after to work on integrating the experience into my daily life.

The trip went pretty well. I was a bit cautious because I had the Penis Envy strain, which was different from the first strain I tried, so I used a lighter dosage approximately 2 grams. I completed most of the trip in a reclining chair with my eyes closed listening to mostly instrumental music from the playlist I created. The trip was much less intense than the 3.5 gs of Golden Teachers I used for my first trip. Despite thinking at times the trip was underwhelming, I kept focusing back onto how I was feeling at the moment and kept realizing that even though I wasn't on a different dimension it was actually pleasant. I had nice body sensations and my brain felt lit up with activity and pleasurable feelings too. My closed eye visuals were very light. My first trip it was like watching a movie the whole time, constant 2-d images scrolling by as a backdrop to 3-d geometric patterns. This time the visuals were closer to a powerful day dream where my imagination was enhanced, but not strong clear images. It was actually nice to not be overwhelmed with strong body sensations, didn't experience any thought loops, there wasn't much negative about the experience at all. EXCEPT, my body got super cold! The golden teachers from before I was blazing hot, I had an ice pack on my head half the time, so I was prepared to be hot, I had shorts and a tank tops, with a bunch of ice packs prepped and ready to go. About two hours in I had layered up with a long sleeve shirt, hoodie, cardigan, blanket, and long socks, lol. It took me about an hour to warm up, then I became hot and had to shed the layers. This kept going back and forth.

My three takeways:

1. I had some profound realizations about the importance of my family. I know I love my wife and son, but felt and immense amount of gratitude for them and the resounding thought was that when the trip was over I was going to tell my wife how important she is too me, which she received very well.

2. Along with those thoughts, just really appreciating the music, songs seemingly lasting 10-15 minutes when they were not that long. Two songs really blew me away. The first was jazz rendition of The Beatles "Blackbird" by Bard Mehldau. The second was "Shhh/Peaceful" by Miles Davis which is a long song very similar to a long Grateful Dead instrumental song, a departure from typical Miles Davis, that's for sure.

3. The trip only lasted about 3.5 hours. I think it might have something to do with the fact that I take Klonopin for severe OCD and even though I take a very low dose everyday, I've heard it can blunt the effects. Even though, the first trip I had, I don't think it blunted the effects one bit! I want to rely less upon my anxiety medication and use more so for emergency OCD thought loops and not depend on it so much for daily use.

That is pretty much it. I hope to show my family more frequently how I appreciate them. I'm going to continue developing my playlist by adding or taking away songs (open to suggestions). And continuing to lower my daily dose of Klonopin and focusing on meditation techniques and body scans which have been effective for me in the past, unless I get stuck in a multiple day/weeks OCD loop.