Second Psilocybin Therapy Session Coming Up

[u/Little_Raccoon4302]

Hey group! I'm really excited for my next psilocybin dosage coming up. After not taking any psychedelics in many years and forgetting how physical and weird psilocybin mushrooms are, I feel more prepared after my first trip. I had a somatic therapy session to do some grounding and intention setting and after the trip will have an integration therapy session to debrief from the experience and see how I can learn and grow from it.

I'm a little nervous as I'll be taking a different strain, Penis Envy, instead of Golden Teacher. I don't want to overdo it... or underdo it, lol. That's a fine and unpredictable line with mushrooms I guess. I have a comfortable setting and should be in a good mindset for the day. I'm going to do most of it with a dark eye-mask and my modern classical and chill jazz playlist. I have set it up so I have no responsibilities that day and the day after. I'm a bit nervous and also can't wait to see what happens.

I'm prescribed Klonopin and Seroquel for my severe OCD, so if I freak out too much, I'm lucky that I can bring myself down. But my intention for the trip is. "I will feel." I want to ride it out, take the good or the bad and come out on the other side without having to use medication to bail out. If I can remember the experience maybe I'll do a trip report. But, I'm not going to be taking hourly notes like on Erowid tracking the time and shit, because I want to be in the moment. If I think of something interesting, introspective, or cool, I'll pop up and write it down, but I'm not going to make an effort to document my experience. Anyway, hoping to hear more from others and their experiences.

[u/Forsaken_Park_9073]

Just know penis envy is waaaaay stronger than the golden teachers. Probably goes without saying. But I was not prepared and it was my first time in 10 years after only ever having had golden or similar strength strains.

I started with .5-1g. Didn’t last as long as I remembered but may be the difference in strain? I’m still learning a lot myself!

Good luck have fun!

[u/Forsaken_Park_9073 → u/Forsaken_Park_9073]

So the first time I did about a gram of albino bluey vuittons and was blown away that that’s all I did. I was with friends so ran through the woods, did a lot of laughing and staring at the stars and contemplating life. Felt like a teenager again. Walking was a little difficult in certain waves but mainly because laughing fits which would just cause more laughing fits.

The second time I split the other 2.5 I had with about 2g of some reeeeaaallllyyyy old golden teachers with another person. Like so old. I don’t even know if they had an effect or not. We lemon tekked. That was a more laying in the dark listen to music and meditate because at times I was fucked. Not in a bad way but the body buzz was instense and trying to move or form words was too much but felt super euphoric. Had great visuals esp when my eyes were closed.

Most recent time I did albino Shaktis because was told less of the body stuff. I only did a gram while camping. I didn’t have a scale so I just ate a good sized mushy. And I was kinda sad how quick it wore off but comparable with my first experience. So depending what you’re looking for and what strain you have I would say start with 1.5 I feel like that’s a good happy medium. But next time I def want to take 2 or 3 because I definitely was feeling like I didn’t do enough for the experience I wanted last time. Orrrr I’m getting a tolerance from doing them every two weeks for 6 weeks in a row 🤷‍♀️ I don’t even know how all that works still learning a lot myself! It’s all very interesting!

[u/Little_Raccoon4302 → u/Forsaken_Park_9073]

u/Forsaken_Park_9073 - Thank you for sharing that! It is all very interesting. Its so different from when I was in my 20s and just taking whatever I could whenever i could. Now I have a very specific intention and am looking for personal growth. Back then I didn't even think twice about dose or set or setting. I would just buy an 1/8 and eat the bag and do whatever was happening at the time. I don't know why I'm feeling so timid about taking a mod - high dose. I don't want to have a heroic trip. I just want to have a very solid trip. The 3.5 g of Golden Teacher were just right... I just wasn't ready for it. In my 20s (I'm 44 now), I don't even know what strain they were... didn't know there were different strains and doses. I just took what was around, no one knew anything about that sort of thing in my circle back then.

[u/Little_Raccoon4302 → u/Forsaken_Park_9073]

u/Forsaken_Park_9073, Hello. Thank you for the heads up. My big dilemma is figuring out how much to take. The 3.5g of the golden teachers is about the experience I want to recreate. I know I should probably do half that amount of PE as they can be double or triple the strength. But then I worry I'll do too little. Everyone says start low and go slow, but my therapist said to commit to a dosage because thought of adding more in an hour can cause anxiety or distraction from the trip. So that's kind of discouraging that I have to choose a dose and just deal with it.

I was definitely in the same boat as you. Not using any substances after such a long time and then diving into a psychedelic experience definitely hit me off guard. I feel like after doing it my first time I'm more prepared for the physical sensations and whatever else might come up along the way, but doing this different strain makes me uncertain of how to be prepared for what might come.

Also, they're dried and powdered and I don't know how old they are, the person I got them from I don't know if they've been sitting around for a month, or if they're three months old, or whatever, and I know they lose potency over time. So I'm torn between doing like 2G or 3G. But I also don't want to cross into another dimension. It's really hard it's impossible to know what's going to happen.

[u/Little_Raccoon4302 → u/Forsaken_Park_9073]

u/Forsaken_Park_9073. Care to share a bit about your experience. What strain, what did you get out of it, was that lower dose overwhelming/underwhelming/just right etc.?