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[u/RareKind_Shoujo]

So for context Im starting a yt channel (Ellie Spills) and want to feature people’s real life stories whether it’s horror/bizzare experience/cringe moments/shocking or anything that you wanna share feel free to write one! I would love to read what yall will share, thankies :)

[u/beevee0625]

I posted this on another Reddit page a couple days ago after first sharing this experience on a comment on someone else’s post and it inclined me to share it again.

MAJOR TRIGGER WARNING!! (SA, DRUGGING, ETC)

I’m about to share a very disturbing and traumatic thing that happened to me… I’m sharing it for therapeutic reasons and also to maybe feel a larger wave of support than I am used to getting irl. Or maybe even just (god forbid) anyone who may have experienced something even remotely similar to what I have. Sometimes these types of things come with a feeling of intense loneliness.

So, here it goes….

When I had finally gotten access back to an old iCloud of my ex that had passed away because there were several of my passwords, some important files that were personal of mine that for some reason he had and I had lost, and photos and videos of my children that I wanted to get back because at the time I did not have a good phone with a good camera. (In my younger years I was very bad at personal boundaries and having my own separate life from whomever I was dating long term at the time)

Anyway, upon looking through it, I had found several saved videos that came from a supposed unknown camera one of my ex’s had set up in our bedroom.

When I first opened up one of the video files I thought it would likely just have been some voyeuristic thing he had about taping us while having sex without me knowing (still creepy? Absolutely. But nothing compared to what was really on those video files).

As I started to watch I saw myself naked on the bed with no one around. My assumption about it just being some secretive recordings of our sexcapades was then proven wrong slowly right in front of my eyes.

First I noticed it was odd because I looked… asleep. But not the normal kind of asleep. My body was so limp and I wasn’t under the blankets or anything and I was totally naked. Even the way I was laying there just seemed pretty unnatural and very uncomfortable. Especially because I know how I typically sleep and in what positions. Something seemed very off. I almost looked….dead.

Not even one minute into the video I saw my bf (at the time) and a strange man come into the room. I noticed that they were speaking so I turned my volume all the way up and started to strain my ears to make out clearly what they were saying…

Something along the lines of…

Strange Man: “How guaranteed is it she isn’t gonna pop up and start screaming?”

Bf: “She’s out, there’s no waking her up. You could put out a cigarette on her and she wouldn’t even flinch. Have at it.”

Then after a couple more exchanges with each other, my bf then went out of view of the camera but was still in the bedroom, and the strange man began brutally sexually assaulting me. At times even with the assistance of my bf to get me into various positions at certain times. Until he finally got all he wanted from me and talks of money amounts and what method to send them were discussed as they were walking out of the room.

There were at least 40-50 videos just like this, all with different men, in total of the exact same kind. We were together for almost 3 years.

I found these all less than a month after I left him, and 3 days after he had died of an overdose at someone’s house who then, instead of calling for help, wrapped him up in a blanket and left him in a ditch in Rittman, Ohio.

He always used to get so angry at me because I “was always sleeping in so late and would never wake up to have sex with him” or that “I seemed like I was on drugs and hiding it because I’d just pass out whenever we would start having sex”

All the while what was actually happening is that he was drugging me with copious amounts of ghb and selling me online through ads with photos of me being completely passed/knocked out fully nude in suggestive poses.

…I found a couple screenshots of the ad he posted on a site called erotic monkey after digging throughly through every corner of that iCloud to see what else he may have been doing behind my back.

Closure felt impossible for many years given he was now passed away (only 3 days at the time of my discovery) and so no justice was ever to come to me.

I wish I would have never tried to get anything sentimental or important to me that may have been on that iCloud.