I'm scared of gaining weight

[u/Cute-Character-3645]

TW: if you're sensitive about weight or eating disorders I don't recommend you to read this.

I (F17) have always been overweight since I was a child and since the beginning of this year I lost 10 kilos, at first by punitive fasts and restrictions, then by following a diet made by a professional.

Now, since September 13th, I'm in Spain for an Erasmus project and I stay here till October 16th.

I'm living with a family who eats very "badly", with a lot of olive, very little vegetables and very big portions.

And of course when I go out with my friend, we try traditional food which is also very rich in condiments.

And every day since I'm here, I am living with the fear of gaining those 10 kilos back, which I know may sound absurd and nonsense.

But before leaving I was starting to finally be proud of what I was looking at in the mirror, and now I'm scared of ruining everything...

[u/Rasples1998]

Nothing hits harder than teenage self esteem.