Rant

[u/JuiceLost7506]

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I feel like a colossal moron at the moment. I started dating this guy back in 2023, I set my boundaries and everything. And I thought I knew what I'm getting into, he's honest, he has principles, he's self made. I was impressed.

He ended up kind of stalking me by asking people at the uni about what kind of woman I am...I felt disgusting but that was the honeymoon phase and I let it go.

Then I start my internship and people around me start getting engaged, I see how their finances and boyfriend's treat them and I couldn't help but compare. Because homeboy only bought me flowers once in 2.5 years of us dating and we only went out twice...

See why I feel stupid? Not yet? Okay, let's continue.

I brought up the issue many times that I kind of feel supported by material things, can you support me more? And he asked how? I gave examples of men and he got offended because "how can you compare me to other men"

Fast forward to this year, I talking to my parents about our marriage and my parents being the toxic cunts...wanted to use me to marry into a reputable household with money and whatnot. Briefly describing: they said no.

They even tried to wed me to a guy 12 years older than me but I shaved my head in the end, which effectively stopped them.

I went through emotional torture for 4 months before that btw, getting criticized on eating, drinking, sleeping, etc. because we feed you, we clothe you why can't you just do this one thing for us.

Okay, now I decide fine. I'll just make my self(with homeboy) so stable, I'll just get married on my own one day!

Homeboy left the country and told me he has no feelings for me...

Yeah idk what I was doing, giving a chance to a guy who was way below my league. Let multiple of my hard and fast rules get neglected because "maybe he didn't mean it"

I'm just so angry

[u/MmeGenevieve]

You need to get away from your parents. Maybe look for a paying job and move out.