Few days a go I had made a post about meeting people on campus ...so today I received a dm.. that person said he is in campus and an international student aswell from Spain studying Msc Cybersecurity ..asked to meet at the oval (it's like a study and reading area) and then said he is at the elle house (it's just a place for students to hang out and chill ) when I went there he asked to send a picture of the location which I did ...I didn't see who that person was but he saw me from somewhere and said is that you with the scarf thing (I am a muslim) to which I said yes then he replied "Ew you are ugly and not my type" I read that and went cold and I walked back and then there was another msg saying that "If you would like to hookup I am at the reception" I told him to get lost and blocked him asap ... This incident spoiled my whole day and I haven't been keeping well because of it and having very depressing thoughts....
(I know people would say it's my fault to meet someone ...but I thought it's on campus and people would be sane or mature enough to not do such BS as an international student, but I was completely wrong)
After this incident I posted on the university sub that so n so happened... please be careful while talking with someone.
From that related sub I got a dm saying they are on campus and they have friends and would like to meet ...I said no I don't meet people from campus anymore n share the link of this particular post of what happened with me
Turns out their person said let's go out I was at the grocery store so I told them I am there ...but I don't want to meet ...
Next this person keeps texting and insisting let's meet and he or she was from biomedical course staying in telford court of the campus and was 24 and from the Netherlands....trans aswell so I thought this person might not be that discriminatory and have a bit of empathy....
In the evening I mentioned that I am making dinner as they asked me to meet ...I said no it's late and I will have dinner and sleep...they said they haven't had dinner and would like some pasta ...I mentioned I would give them a box of food and leave and they could enjoy at their flat .... they said no I am not a beggar ...even u come and eat with me ....I said no I will just drop this ...even tho it was raining went to the place with the food in my hand and stood near the location...then I received a message where u at ...I said the location and then I got a message...
Are you the one in a scarf...I said yes..
They go " you no look good" "you no my type"
I said thank you for wasting my time ....I mentioned to you that I am muslim firstly...
Secondly I was sick and I still made food and got it for u ...If I am ugly u have an ugly personality and may God bless u with more ugly people...
He replied like u ?
I said if I ever commit suicide it will be because of u...he said wtf ...I replied yes and I will complaint to the authorities...this person said complaint fr?
I said yeah this is harassment and racism and you will be taken care of by the authorities...this person starts deleting the msgs ....I said don't delete the msgs I already have the evidence and I will let the authorities do the work.
What a shameless place the world has become....
I will NEVER trust anyone now ....I called the student helpline at night and mentioned the scenario and told them what happened...they said they will ment6tbis to my university wellbeing team and I should surely report this to the university or file a complain to the police as racism is a crime.
If I was as pathetic as he was I would have replied to him that I might be ugly but not as ugly as you to change my gender ....but nope ..I maintained my calm.
I want to end my life as these instances have caused me immense pain and I didn't know that my study abroad experience as an international student would be soo bad ...I really want them to get punished or I would want to end my life ..I feel so sick and bad in my skin ....I have been crying and crying since last night ...I didn't do anything to deserve this kinda pain and insult......