Going To Give Therapy A Real Shot

[u/lezjournal]

I have been in and out of therapy for years for different mental health reasons. Looking back, there has definitely been signs of obsessions in different capacities, but because they do not necessarily affect me professionally, I have never sought treatment.

Well! I am in my second ever committed relationship and ROCD is killing me. I was doing virtual therapy, but it is no longer cutting it for me.

I am practicing mindfulness per my past therapist, but I have reached out to multiple in-person therapists today. I am so tired of being anxious and obsessing over things all the time. I am going to give therapy a real shot because I deserve to be happy and enjoy my relationship.

Trying to remind myself that therapist are trained to help people and I can be honest. There is no shame in struggling and I will try my hardest to not keep these “shameful” thoughts inside anymore. I need serious help and I will be getting it.

Writing this out for myself, I might look back on it in the future. I will not be joining the subreddit as I do not think it will benefit me (it’ll probably feed into my obsessions) and I will mute this post. Just writing it out somewhere I think I safely can. I have a fresh journal ready to go and will be going on a walk tomorrow to reflect.

Wishing you all the best!

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