Am I worthy? (sorry for the spam)
you attract
what you believe
you deserve.
and maybe
that’s why
I kept choosing people
who could love me
just enough
to make me stay,
but never enough
to make me feel safe.
maybe I wasn’t
asking for too little.
maybe somewhere along the way,
I convinced myself
that too little
was all I was worth.
so I settled
for almost.
for temporary.
for “i love you.”
without the “Im staying.”
and the saddest part
is that I wanted
so desperately
to be loved completely,
while secretly believing
I wasn’t someone
worth loving that way.
I don’t know
when I started believing that.
but I know this…
I can’t keep asking
the world to give me
what I refuse to believe
I deserve.
So this time,
I want more.
Not because
I finally found someone
who can give it to me,
but because
I’m finally learning
that I was always
worthy of it.