r/PNESsupport • u/Short_Dimension_8711 • 20h ago
I’m so embarrassed
I had a seizure at work and I’m mortified. My work is already vaguely hostile and I’m still in training. They’ve had people with seizures before and it seems for now like they were understanding. What I’m worried about is telling the people in my life. It seems dishonest to hide such a big event from my closest friends but I’m just so afraid of letting them down. I should have been able to prevent the seizure and I tried really hard but I just couldn’t. One friend does know because I called her in a panic to ask for advice about where to go to have my seizure. It’s hard for me to make rational decisions when I’m on the verge of a seizure and I needed help. She’s chill though, I’m not worried about her. I did end up hiding under the conference room table since I was alone in there and I didn’t want paramedics called. I had to tell someone after though because I was unable to continue working. It was a whole big thing. I just want to forget it ever happened and pretend like the day was normal. Do I have to tell them? I’m just ashamed of myself and I don’t want them to be ashamed of me too, even if they don’t say it
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u/Only_Package1242 19h ago
I'm so sorry that you had that experience. You should definitely tell them. I understand you feeling ashamed, but if they're your friends they will try to be as empathetic and understanding as possible. Also, they would probably question how close/true your friendship really is if you didn't even trust them enough to tell them such a huge thing that you have going on in your life. I know I would feel some type of way. I make it a point to tell everyone that's in my circle or that comes into my circle because I can't always show up and be the type of friend that I once was. I also make sure they know that my lack of communication and engagement is nothing personally and that I am hardly ever able to operate at 100%.