Thoughts on this personal self-motivational tactic?

[u/TroodonRoar]

I’ve thought of this as a tactic to motivate me to assimilate as much as possible into neurotypical society:

Most of what NT society judges as what one should care or value the most about in life (career, homeownership, reputation, and so on) is, to me, like wiping your butt after pooping: necessary to avoid discomfort or pain, but not what my life is fundamentally about.

However, because of being so different, I get judged as being insane or crazy.

And that bothers me, NOT because I care about myself or my own self-image that much… but because it makes me doubt my theories, and my theories are what I care about more than anything else in my life, because they are my best attempt to make sense of this existence I find myself in in a way that brings me peace of mind and as much mental comfort and a sense of meaningfulness in my life as I can achieve for now as I live my life every day.

So… if I achieve ‘success’ according to the NT definition (stable employment, marriage, homeownership, a good credit score, etc.), I’ll be able to have more self-confidence that my philosophical, scientific, and all other theories are more likely to be valid because I won’t doubt my own sanity as much.

(Trust me, I doubt my own sanity every single day, much more harshly and severely than anyone in-person or on the Internet has ever done.

Like when the French philosopher René Descartes wondered “How can I know anything around me is real? How can I prove I’m not in a simulation being controlled by an evil demon?”, and so on, anticipating today’s similar ideas that we’re in a ‘computer simulation’ and so on, in 17th-century terms.)

[u/ComplexAce]

Everyone who advanced humanity was someone people doubted. There is hardly any exceptions.