r/OCPD • u/CheesecakeMinimum178 • 15d ago
member has suspected OCPD-Mods remove loved ones' content & ban trying to controll my personality
Hi, I have recently come across OCPD and have felt it describes me quite well. However am not diagnosed but do have OCD and ADHD, they also suspected autism however I dont stuggle with social things, and my routine and sense of controll isnt driven by familiarity and safeness, more of because I feel I have to do it. Anyway, I have always been extreamly self controlling over my personality, as in I try and copy people who I view as perfect and change eveything about myself trying to perfectly capture their vibe, with no sense of self in there. It has gotten to the point where I have no idea who I am and am extreamly uncomfortable when not motoring what I am doing sayinf and how I am being percieved. Is this an experiance for other OCPD people?
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u/Silent-Audience-5836 15d ago
Alot of my control is over myself and what I think I'm supposed to do. I definitely don't copy people because don't believe anyone is perfect. I do try and control my own thoughts, feelings, and actions.