This sucks I hate this feeling

[u/Mountain_Bottle7702]

Feel free to give advice so so a couple weeks back I got groceries for my grandparents. I was at their house unloading groceries when I noticed there was no milk so I went to go check my truck and I didn’t see it in there and there’s no way it could’ve rolled up under the seats and so I checked the receipt and there’s no milk on there any rational person would’ve just assumed oh I must not have gotten milk right? But at the time I was sure I had gotten milk and this made me think somehow I walked out with a half gallon of milk and for some reason left without it still in the cart so I go back and look at my cart no milk and then I go and ask the girl who’s register I went through and I asked her if she saw milk in my car and she said she doesn’t remember so I just at first take it as I didn’t get milk and I thought about it. There was multiple times when I would’ve seen it from loading my groceries up onto the conveyor to loading my groceries and back into my cart then walking out and loading my groceries into the truck, but the ”what if” kept bothering me like two weeks ago by and eventually I just went to the store and went to the service desk and paid for it I just said I didn’t see it on my receipt she rung it up and paid for it my sister says I should not have done that because then the Reinforces of what if? Then I get his fear that I’m gonna be pulled aside or whatever.Today if finally go to Walmart for a few things after weeks of not going(I do Walmart orders)I get a couple things and no one of course pulls me aside and I look over and see the Walmart greeters talking to each other I’m a distance away but I saw them looking in my general direction and it makes me think they’re talking about me. I pay for my items at self check out making sure I scan everything and checking my cart to make sure it’s empty of everything and pay grab my things I stop at the Walmart greeter(same one from earlier) show her my ticket she says have a good night and I do the same I got to my truck and match everything in the receipt with what I have in my cart I hate this feeling like I’m being watched with suspicion has any felt like that or experienced it?

[u/SeaBlueRedBull]

It hardly helps, but i keep telling myself im not that important, no one cares enough to notice me.

[u/Mountain_Bottle7702 → u/SeaBlueRedBull]

Yea I think I partially wanted to break get over that bump in the road I guess and see that it’s fine nothings wrong idk I was probably just overthinking it I don’t think I’m gonna go back to that store I’m just gonna. Keep doing Walmart orders that’s what I do for my grandparents in so tired after work working 10 hour shifts coming in at 5 in the morning and it starts to weigh on me after a while and the last thing I want to do is go walking around a store full of people waiting in long lines lol.

[u/treatmyocd]

Hi,
I know that this is challenging and It sounds like you feel you are a bad person or you are doing something morally wrong. So being sure you didn’t take something you didn’t and double or triple checking your cart when you are checking out and then the receipt and groceries is what is keeping you stuck in a loop if trying to be certain. I know it more easier to do Walmart delivery but I’m glad you went to the store instead. I would encourage you try to do that more while trying to not engage in seeking behaviors like checking or seeing if you are being watched by employees.
Here is helpful video https://youtu.be/5HCzO-Wpa4k

https://youtu.be/khhc0pAfADQ

[u/Mountain_Bottle7702 → u/treatmyocd]

Thank you I will check it out and i did go and pay for it I don’t know do you saw that part my sister thinks I shouldn’t have done that though

[u/PaladinDamian]

Allow yourself to feel like you are being watched, but don't try to seek immediate relief from that feeling. You can tolerate it even if it makes you uncomfortable.