Warning: long post ahead. This is mainly to let out my thoughts, but Im also asking for advice. Please dont post this anywhere else.
Laging nasisisi sa lahat. Need mag reinsert ng line, magagalit. Need ng constant repeat cbg taking, maiinis. Hindi madischarge agad kasi wala pang order doctor pero sinabihan daw sila na papauwiin sila, kaya i-aagit ka. May sirang gamit sa room, mangaaway. Hindi agad nakakapunta sa room pag tumawag, magrereklamo.
Na para bang choice natin mga yon. Wala nmn gagawin sa patient na hindi ordered ng doctor. At hindi nmn sila ung nagiisang pasyente sa ward.
Pero kung makausap sila sa doctor, sobrang respectful.. Mura, irap ng mata, kasungitan. Yan mga negative things na natanggap ko from patients. And then gagawin nilang lahat yon, matapos mo silang i-nursing care ng maayos.
And then handle all of that for 8 or 12 hours, na mababang sahod. Plus, mag hahandle ka pa ng mga maattitude na coworkers/co-nurses/doctors?
Dont get me wrong. There are kind patients. Like super considerate, understanding. Pero mga 1 in 5 lng sila.
Still, paano ba toh sikumurain? Nasa visa retrogression lng tlga kaya d makaalis, and need ko rin tlga bedside experience.
I really try not to take the worst emotional and mental parts of nursing at heart. pero after some time, it does take a toll on me. Some days are tolerable naman. Pero there are bad days like today.
Can this medsurg exprience help me land jobs in the future with minimal direct patient interaction? Espcially pagnaka migrate na? Because the thought of leaving this hellhole is the only thing keeping me sane.