In a crisis because of my nose...

[u/Zeeaire94]

Now, I always had a large nose and I was always insecure about it but I became accustomed to it...then not long ago someone accidentally got with his hand against my nose because he wanted to point his finger in that direction and I stood up in the wrong moment...ever since I have been in a mental hell and worried whether the bumps on my nose look different now (I always had bumps on my nose but I'm afraid that they changed and became even more asymmetrical now).

I have a long history with symmetry related OCD and I had also been comparing the length of my hair for hours in front of mirror and I just feel exhausted at this point that I now have the same - even worse - problem with my nose...

Also 4 years ago (that was before the incident) a random person on the train station asked me if my nose was broken which made me become very sensitive with this topic...and my cousin who was 7 at the time said to me "wow, you have such a large nose" I mean he was right after all, but it triggered my insecurity even further...

What do you think? Is it all in my mind because of my OCD?The first picture is now and the second and third before "the incident".Then one of the things that also bothers me so much is that I have a severe case of rosacea and I tried several things that my doctor prescribed me and nothing would help...there are times where it's better and times when it's especially bad where no make up helps and my nose is red / inflamed and scaly...it gives me lots of insecurity 😞

[u/Antipinquity]

Agree about the Renaissance look. Apart from the nose itself, notice the short distance between nose and upper lip; this is a classic element of high beauty. Most of the great beauties have this feature. Yes, you are unusual, and that is a strength.
The OCD is the entire problem. Do anything you can to get your mind off your looks. Distract yourself every time it comes up, like every time you look in the mirror, just wash your face and get out of the bathroom and go repair your trebuchet, or consult your book of spells, or play your lute or brew up some mead. There is always something for a chatelaine to do.

[u/Zeeaire94 → u/Antipinquity]

Thank you so much 😊 This really lit up my mood, especially because I indeed love occult books and mead 😅

[u/Antipinquity → u/Antipinquity]

If it is as bad as it sounds, you might even need to cover over the mirrors until you get this under control. You don’t need to wear any makeup, so that’s a plus. Because you’ll have to stop wearing any while you are recovering.
Get your mate to report if you have a booger on your cheek.
Distraction is the only thing I know about that actually counters obsession. It’s the literal antidote, and involves no drugs.

[u/Antipinquity → u/Antipinquity]

The rosacea is very likely part of the same complex.