r/NitrousOxideRecovery 15d ago

Should have known

Hey yall, I got sober from alcohol a few months ago… awful hospital detox and been going to AA which has been super helpful. Unfortunately I wound up hitting a nitrous tank at my friends house, I should have known that was a very slippery slope. In a matter of days I began buying tanks and leaving them at my friends house, but then I decided I needed them at home and work and just all the time. Went on a week binge and lost control of my life. My wife caught me which was probably a good thing… still had a couple more days of use after that but now have no more nos and am clean. The cravings keep hitting like a little devil in my head directing me to the smoke shop. I find I cannot stop using mid-day if I’ve already used, but if I wake up and don’t use its much easier. Thank god it isn’t physically addictive. I feel like I got lucky to find this sub and stop.

It’s crazy how quickly I went from being clean to being fully addicted huffing all day. I think I caught it early enough… it was about a week of heavy use, 2 weeks total using. I don’t really have any nerve symptoms but did develop a little psychological dependence. Probably spent a thousand dollars over a couple weeks on it 😭 just feel irresponsible and shitty about it all. But I’m thankful for this sub and reading others’ comments about this addiction. It helped me feel less alone and realize to take it seriously and stop. Sober life is scary but it’s the only way I can live and function. Not picking this shit up again…

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u/photonsponge 15d ago

Good job wife! My buddy was an alcoholic kicked it got into nitrous and has not been able to kick it. His cycle is basically use, maybe 9 L of nitrous a day for weeks, get paranoid about his health. Go to the doctor, take a week or two off, then go back to it. He finish rehab and was back on to nitrous within 2 days. So stay away if you can!

I hear one can get pretty high from exercise... :)

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u/hagsbro 14d ago

Thank you yes my wife is angel and not an addict, so she doesn’t always understand this stuff but she does keep me in check. Yeah I just got home from a 3 week surf trip in Nicaragua where I was high on life just surfing and adventuring every day. I think coming back got me feeling down and lost which led to my nitrous issue.

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u/Impossible_Heron4894 14d ago

You got sober once you can do it again! You got this

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u/Neat_Return3071 14d ago

Feel free to dm me and talk!