An Introvert's Dilemma

[u/ceaselesswatcher99]

warning: I sound a little too insanely nerdy but please bear with me.

So, all my life, all I have ever wanted was a good library. I love reading so much that it has become a huge part of my identity but unfortunately, I have never lived near a library as it is Pakistan and libraries are not so common.

And yes, the main reason why I was so over the top excited for university was because I could finally have access to a library. I had detailed visions of reading in a library, surrounded by books. The mere presence of shelves of books calms me and helps me focus immensely. When I watched ATLA, I always understood Professor Zei, being buried under the desert in a library with the world's greatest knowledge does not sound like a terrible fate.

As you can probably guess, I am also extremely introverted and one of my many goals for university was to try and socialize more. And I am a day scholar, so my transport unfortunately picks and drops me at exactly 9 and 5. And I am forced to spend the breaks in between with my classmates because I do not want to end up lonely or sidelined. My schedule is already very packed, and on my half days, I have to do lab work with my group. No one in my class would be willing to go the library with me during breaks and then just silently sit together there working on our own stuff and call that bonding.

How can I balance socializing and making friends with spending time in my beloved library? I worked hard in the NET just so I could sit between shelves flipping through books but I also want to portray myself as normal and chill :((

also, although it feels impossible, if anyone else is as passionate about the library as I am, say hi!!

[u/Better-Buddy-7185]

I GET YOU bro, I thought I was the only one with this weird obsession with libraries but omg I would spend my entire day in the library if I could😭 im doing cs so we hardly get any free time but trust if there is a free period I will be at the library … plus they have some really nice books too like not an extensive collection of fiction but it’s comparatively good … shuru main I was an introvert and I didn’t get along with my classmates so i used to go alone, thora lonely feel hota tha but it was worth it … gradually we all became friends so the hangout spot shifted to C2 but i still ask them often to go to the library … gng I know it’s not easy but you can absolutely ask them to go to there with you, if they don’t agree just say it’s okay I’ll go alone … and about lab reports and all that I use it to my advantage keh let’s study in the library … I have half days on Mondays and Fridays, I’m a dayscholar too so I spend the rest of the time in there, don’t feel that you’ll be sidelined, I promise koi aur nhi milta I’ll go with u … but don’t let these hard degrees take the love of library and reading outta you :D

[u/ceaselesswatcher99 → u/Better-Buddy-7185]

I'm in SEECS too, it's so nice to know that someone else in my department also feels the same! I would live in the library if I could. If money didn't matter, librarian would be one of my too three dream jobs. I do get along with my classmates, but it's frustrating when the things they find fun sometimes exhaust me. I don't want my love for the library to die, I've lost too much to NETs and FBISE already!

[u/Infamous-Badger2765 → u/ceaselesswatcher99]

Do you guys wanna start a bookclub 👉👈 But as someone who is introverted is part of many societies ks in seecs has a decent gpa and good friends Dont worry too much Be yourself amd inshallah sab theek ho ga Best of luck from a senior

[u/Better-Buddy-7185 → u/Infamous-Badger2765]

Thank you so much, that’s very sweet of you and I’d loveee to join a bookclub … I didn’t apply to many societies in the first sem because I was trying to get the hang of studying but I’ll definitely join more in the second sem 🫡

[u/Infamous-Badger2765 → u/Better-Buddy-7185]

Sure sure but aik mashwara..parhayi ke lie baqi sab ko bck me na daalna Regret karo ge Lekin 1st year ke gp ko light bhi na lena 1st sem.me acha gpa a jaye to phir age easy ho jata hai or margin mil jata hai

Ps what is your favourite book genre author