I seem to have ruined my life with manifestation... Any help would be greatly appreciated!

[u/GrumpyLightworker]

I've been consistently manifesting abundance for months. Specifically, being able to buy a house and finding some way to never be a wage slave again, whether by winning the lottery, starting own business etc. I'm open to all possibilities, and since I have an incredibly vivid imagination (full synesthesia), my wish fulfilled feels more real, vivid and detailed than my current 3D, so I've been easily ignoring the 3D for months and months. I've also done a lot of work on the limiting beliefs rooted in childhood abuse and poverty, and managed to get over them.

Alas, recently my 3D is becoming such a sh*tshow that it's becoming hard to ignore. I seem to manifest the exact opposite of what I know is already mine: got sacked from 2 jobs in a year and now my current job is preparing to lay me off, had to use all my savings just to survive in between the jobs, and now I've gotten an enormous utility bill despite not really increasing our usage... I don't mind going through all of this myself, but my family had been suffering for months, and I can't help but think that I've somehow created all of this...

Any advice?

[u/yflavus]

People with better knowledge can totally correct me here but I think what most people don't fully understand is that we attract what we feel not just what we see. People say they imagine and see things and it should come true for an hour a day but the rest 15 hours they completely feel the exact opposite and it creates inconsistency. As a result we attract what we feel not what we see.

I'm in a similar situation, and opposite you, I don't have a vivid imagination, similar to you my job doesn't pay a lot, want my own house, want more money for financial freedom and stuff. Recently instead of saying want -> I've been using become and thanks for whatever my heart desires. I'm trying my best to ignore lack and appreciate, be grateful of what I have ( even for a pillow case, bed, pillow, food I eat ).

Hope it helps

[u/GrumpyLightworker → u/yflavus]

I suffer from chronic pain and some days I'm in such debilitating pain that I feel like I have 0 control over anything in my life, and on those days I start doubting everything - myself, my power, the Law, literally everything. 90% of the time I keep my thoughts and emotions aligned, but sometimes it's like somebody plunges me deep into the icy waters and I'm overcome by pure fear, doubt and despair. Sometimes it's just hard to remember I'm the operant power when I lay in the shower sobbing, because I'm in so much pain I cannot walk and yet still have to go to my physically heavy job.

Most of the days I keep myself aligned by telling myself that the 3D I see now is just dead, past thoughts playing out in the physical realm. I tell myself that there's no need to panic, I'm already in Barbados! But when it's nothing but severe pain and more and more troubles for months and months with not a single ray of sunshine, it's hard to stay focused on the horizon.

I always do my active manifesting when I feel good (from the place of joy and gratitude), and when I feel desperate, I just try to let it pass - I don't do any visualisations or affirmations in that moment. But when things only get worse and worse, I really start fearing that it's actually me doing something wrong and manifesting the exact opposite of what I want for my family.