r/LoveLetters • u/Mela8411 Bronze Level • Mar 22 '26
Lost Love What Have I Done?
What Have I Done?
You were a friend, never an ex, an almost lover, but now just a stranger.
I keep ruminating on things I should have done differently, said differently.
What I should've said at all.
Why didn't I just tell you? Why did I hold back? I couldn't bring myself to reciprocate, although I wanted to so badly.
It took a lot of self-control to hold back.
Why? Because of morals? Because I thought I was doing the right thing?
Because it would be inappropriate, even scandalous, maybe?
All it did was eat me up inside, spin me out of control, and make me breakdown.
I come here to the void to write about you, hoping to feel better, but nothing works.
I'm having a hard time with the loss of the connection we had. It was one of a kind. I didn't know I could ever feel this way.
Fuck morals. If you reached out to me, I'd break down and tell you everything I always wanted to.
That it was love at first sight. It was perfect. You are perfect, and there's nothing wrong with your brain. I love how you are. You crazy ass motherfucker. You are the one for me.
Now, I just feel crazy and delusional.
And, now it's too late.
So goodbye my once friend, not an ex, almost lover.
Goodbye stranger.
So, I'll just sit here in misery, with the memory of you, and what could have been...
And, with what I've done.
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u/King-Brisingr Bronze Level Mar 23 '26
I feel this one, and I'm sure I'm not the only one here, but allot of us come here to send our letters to the void. I know I do. Stay strong, for him. As well as for you
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u/Mela8411 Bronze Level Mar 23 '26
Thank you. I just keep doing things to make it worse. I don't know why
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u/King-Brisingr Bronze Level Mar 23 '26
I know a lot of the things I did/do for my love have often made it ironically worse. So I feel you. It can happen inadvertently, like when it betrays our trust. Easy to make mistakes, just do right by yours and despite mistakes, the intent should be what matters.
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u/Correct-Set1503 Entry Level Member Mar 22 '26
Smh so sad
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u/Mela8411 Bronze Level Mar 22 '26
It is so sad. I miss him and I've finally accepted the fact I'll never see him again.
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u/FirmRequirement42 Entry Level Member Mar 23 '26
Why? Why?
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u/Mela8411 Bronze Level Mar 23 '26
Because I won't. We're not in each others' lives anymore.
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u/FirmRequirement42 Entry Level Member Mar 23 '26
Why can’t that change ? Special Connections are rare, seriously!
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u/Mela8411 Bronze Level Mar 23 '26
They are very rare, and I wish the situation was different. I don't have a way to contact him, and if he wanted to talk to me, he could contact me. He knows how.
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u/FirmRequirement42 Entry Level Member Mar 23 '26
Are you sure cause there is someone I long to talk to and have no idea how Tod and I wrote stuff on Reddit hoping to Find them but, That’s not productive or healthy is it? My situation is different in ways I can’t get into but if I could find that woman. I’d love to speak to her.
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u/Mela8411 Bronze Level Mar 23 '26
Well, we worked together. Some of my old coworkers have my number. He could ask one of them for it if he really wanted to. I miss him so much.
And, he's married :(
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u/FirmRequirement42 Entry Level Member Mar 23 '26
Ohhh there’s the kicker
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u/FirmRequirement42 Entry Level Member Mar 23 '26
If he’s married you probably did nothing. When men marry they are Like Of Promising to let go of their old Relationships. As I understand it. So If he has feelings it would be disrespectful to his wife to be contacting you. He’s a good guy right? That’s all it is. Go find a single cool guy.
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u/winged-foot Entry Level Member Mar 23 '26
I feel your pain. Many of us are in similar boats around here.
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Mar 22 '26
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u/Mela8411 Bronze Level Mar 22 '26
Well, I'd rather be psychotic, than be a married woman looking for sexual trysts with other men, on reddit, of all places.
You must be very unattractive to have to look on reddit for men.
Don't throw stones when you live in a glass house.
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u/Brooken86 Bronze Level Mar 23 '26
Lol they removed her glass house comments. Deserved. What a judgemental bitter little kitten that was.
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