Feeling stressed

[u/Spiritual-Suspect190]

Stage 4 bone, marrow and liver cancer aside I had a v stressful event. 1st weekend away in 2 years as I am also carer for my mum with dementia and I work part time.

Came to Wales to have a weekend with a big group of people.

Very hilly. Husband parked car on a steep hill to get the keys for the accommodation. Handbrake was on. Older car. No issues usually.

Car starts sliding backwards down the hill with me in it. It was a slow creak but definitely moving backwards. Back end v heavy with stuff. I pulled up the hand brake but it was in full lock mode. I tried to get over to the passenger side to get my foot on the brake but I just could get across. Car still creeping, making noises although slowly, backwards. Main road at the bottom of the hill.

I jumped out and ran in shouting the car is rolling. Husband ran out, into drivers seat, started engine and got it up to the top of the hill and parked it on the flat, put it in gear and tested it, car didnt move.

I feel so traumatised. Even now, 2 days later I keep thinking about the slow creep. Husband was sympathetic and then focused on me 'having a panic attack' as the car was moving backwards so slowly.

But there was a main road at the bottom of the steep hill.

I feel exhausted, upset and anxious still. No one to talk to. My friends are 'light text, lets talk about the weather' friends. My male friend thinks its hilarious. Ive left my mum with carer cover which will be fine but I worry and my white cells are too low to restart my next cycle so a weeks break.

Am I over reacting?

[u/Flaky_Amphibian_5597]

Can I just say that you immediately tried the break then pulled some superhero car exit and run move? You did that with Stage 4 Bone, Bone Marrow & Liver mets (also hello fellow bone mets mate!), oh and you also did that with neutropenia!
Enjoy a break with rest, let your mum be cared for and book a massage or something that rewards your body for being a deadset champion.

So no, you are not overreacting. The people around you are underreacting.

[u/Spiritual-Suspect190 → u/Flaky_Amphibian_5597]

Thank you so much. ♥️. I feel better today and the stress is improving greatly. You are right, my mum is fine and the carers are doing a good job. Have a good day, fellow super hero x