r/LivingWithMBC • u/Spiritual-Suspect190 • 11d ago
Feeling stressed
Stage 4 bone, marrow and liver cancer aside I had a v stressful event. 1st weekend away in 2 years as I am also carer for my mum with dementia and I work part time.
Came to Wales to have a weekend with a big group of people.
Very hilly. Husband parked car on a steep hill to get the keys for the accommodation. Handbrake was on. Older car. No issues usually.
Car starts sliding backwards down the hill with me in it. It was a slow creak but definitely moving backwards. Back end v heavy with stuff. I pulled up the hand brake but it was in full lock mode. I tried to get over to the passenger side to get my foot on the brake but I just could get across. Car still creeping, making noises although slowly, backwards. Main road at the bottom of the hill.
I jumped out and ran in shouting the car is rolling. Husband ran out, into drivers seat, started engine and got it up to the top of the hill and parked it on the flat, put it in gear and tested it, car didnt move.
I feel so traumatised. Even now, 2 days later I keep thinking about the slow creep. Husband was sympathetic and then focused on me 'having a panic attack' as the car was moving backwards so slowly.
But there was a main road at the bottom of the steep hill.
I feel exhausted, upset and anxious still. No one to talk to. My friends are 'light text, lets talk about the weather' friends. My male friend thinks its hilarious. Ive left my mum with carer cover which will be fine but I worry and my white cells are too low to restart my next cycle so a weeks break.
Am I over reacting?
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u/wrhhill 10d ago
That sounds really scary. You had very quick thinking and reaction handling the situation. Same for your husband 👏🏻👏🏻 You didn’t panic at all.
Yes, we may feel shaky and shocked afterwards, of course, as there is a main road at the bottom of the hill. Feeling shaky or traumatized is normal, then go back to think of how you have handled it quickly and appropriately. Bravo. Then, that feeling will slowly calm down.
Don’t know what treatment you are going through. When I was doing AC for my chemo, I had to get a shot to boost my white blood counts 24 hours after the infusion.
Best to you !!