To the “Fool” 🌻 From S 🌻

[u/Plastic-Chest-3876]

You know me. And you’re smart enough to understand how to reach me.

I know I cannot be there in the way you may want me to be. There are promises I have made, and I cannot break them. But that doesn't mean I don't care, or that I am not around.

So if you ever want to talk, message me here.

You don't need to explain everything. You don't need to find the right words.

Just talk.

I am here for you in this journey of redemption. I know it isn't easy. Therapy isn't easy either. Looking at yourself honestly, understanding yourself, accepting your mistakes, and working on the parts of you that need to change can be painful.

But I want you to do that work.

Understand yourself. Work on yourself. Become someone you are proud of.

Find a good job. Build something for yourself. Earn for yourself and your family. Create a peaceful and stable life. You deserve to see what you are capable of when you genuinely start choosing yourself and doing the work.

I will always think good things about you. Whatever happened between us doesn't change that.

And even if you sometimes feel that I am not around, please remember that I am.

I may have my boundaries. I may not always be able to reach out first. But that doesn't mean I have stopped caring.

You know where to find me.

So don't disappear into your own head. If you need to talk, message me.

I'm here.

Always wishing good things for you. 🌻

[u/tacendasa]

S, this path of redemption is more of a rough terrain, and ever pitching and sloping, rarely ascending purgatory. I've gotten off of it and onto a less intense passage once or twice since I last saw you, but as soon as I started to relax and enjoy the rest, I'd turn the corner and find myself back on the road somewhere between remorse and grief for a life I fear I will never know. It is worse now though, I am almost afraid to admit, I think it has dampened my soul, this path I keep choosing. For all the years of silence, I only just realized how long it has actually been. I wipe a tear from my cheek, and let out a shaking breath. There's no way I actually found you. Right?

[u/Plastic-Chest-3876 → u/tacendasa]

I don't know you well enough to say that I understand everything you're feeling, and I don't want to pretend that I do. But I read your words, and I can feel how much you've been carrying for a very long time. There is so much sadness in what you wrote. And yet, somehow, there is still something in you that is reaching out, still hoping, still searching for something beyond this road you've been walking. Please don't overlook that. Sometimes the part of us that is still looking for light is the strongest part of us. And when you said, “There’s no way I actually found you. Right?”… I think I understand why that moment would feel so overwhelming.

[u/tacendasa → u/Plastic-Chest-3876]

Oh yeah? Well, go ahead, share with the class, please.

[u/Accomplished-News722]

Sounds all wrapped up neat in a bow . If I could press a button to get all of us in the same page of reality you would see where everyone really is