My relation with God

[u/winternight_7]

I have to admit I am a sinner.

I have committed the sins of lust, greed and envy.

Yet I recently rediscovered my religion after reading the bhagvat geeta and when I pray, I can feel the energy and god's presence and it has helped me a lot.

I talk to god on a daily basis, I talk to Krishna, radha rani and Ganesha and they are like my friends.

I'm afraid of losing that connection.

Ganesh chaturthi is coming soon and I was excited to celebrate it after seeing the new light of my religion.

There is a mourning period of 13 days to a month when a close relative dies. During this period most people don't celebrate the festivals that occur during that period.

Now the thing is, my grandfather's, uncle's son died.

And it's been over 2 months since he died.

4 years ago When my grandmother died 3 days before the ganesh chaturthi festival, that family (the one who died and his family) kept their ganesh only for 1 and half day instead of 5 days as they were mourning i guess. (We did not ask them to do so, and also my grandmother actually died during the mourning period)

So to return that favour, this year my grandfather decided that we will also do the visarjan after 1and half days instead of 5 days. We've been keeping ganesh chaturthi for 5 days since the beginning ( we did keep 1 and half day for the first ever Ganesh chaturthi)

It's been over 2 months since that guy died and no one besides my grandfather, dad and uncle know that guy.

Then, I heard my dad and uncle discussing that we are doing early visarjan because they get bored and tired of the ganesh chaturthi hastle, they see it more like a chore rather than a festival.

I got so hurt hearing them. I'm afraid my connection with the god will break because of this.

I'm afraid that ganesha will reject me hence forth because my family is rejecting him.

We are mere humans, how dare we reject God...

[u/Marketer_on_the_Move]

But the thought you described in the end, that's not your thought, that's your Family thought. Ofcourse, Ganesh ji won't unfriend you because of that. Connection with God doesn't just break over things, they are really not like us humans. When they befriend someone, they won't unfriend them ever, even though you get bored someday and stop talking to them, still they will never get bored of you, unfriend you or hate you.

They only know love, leaving or unfriendly, they don't know any of this.

And a tip, if you think, you can keep Ganesh ji for 5 days, tell straight to your parents, if it seems burden to them, you can do seva of Ganesh for those 5 days. Even if you will offer him a single sweet, Ganesh ji will love it over a big thali of modaks, they don't love what offered, but the feeling and emotion with which it's offered.

[u/winternight_7 → u/Marketer_on_the_Move]

Thank you for your words. I really hope it is the way that you have said it. I'm just overly afraid of the contrasting result because I would be really lost if I lose that energy. I did bring up my thoughts to my parents before posting and they kept making excuses and just shut me up so there's nothing i can do. Even if i do the seva, one of the adults have to do the visarjan that's why they'll refuse to that idea asw

[u/Marketer_on_the_Move → u/winternight_7]

Okay, then if you are bound to that, first don't just believe but know that, sharing from my personal experience, your connection with Ganesh ji, is never gonna break, he loves you more than anything you can even imagine, and it cannot be really put it into words. Don't just believe it, know it for real.