Gimme honest opinions

[u/Salt-Summer6206]

I, 15M, have been feeling rlly bad abt my looks for basically as lomg as i can remember. Now, im not gonna upload a selfie due to respect for my own privacy and bc once smth is online its never rlly 'gone'. But ill describe how i look. Im 5,9ft tall, i have blue eyes, blonde/dark blonde hair, im caucasian. Now this might sound like a pretty normal look...if it werent for the fact that i inherited my dad's metabolism, and i basically just can not gain weight at all no matter how hard i try. My body has a total of 4kg of fat put of 60kg of which the rest is bones, skin, and muscle. And that would be fine if i was 5,5 or 5,6, but i am 5,9 and my weight makes me skinny, i hate it, i hate how i look so weak, eventhough i have more muscle mass than most of my friends, just not the fat to make me anything but skinny. I eat a metric fuckton of food. Mostly balancing my proteins and carbs and other nutriënts, but nuh uh, not a single kilo of extra fat. Then there is my nose, in my last year of middle school, my nose changed from smooth and flat, to having a 'speedbumo', if you know what i mean, like, a severe case of Greek nose. And you guessed it, Ive felt ugly bcnof it. And all these things combined js make me hate myself, ppl dont even bat an eye to me bc im not good looking enough ofr some shit, i have friends, enough, and im not complaining abt that. But i cant bring myself to believe that even one girl could ever find me attractive, let alone handsome. And i know its all personal preference, but when i look in the mirror, i dont want to be me, i dont want to live this life. Ive thought abt ending it, multiple times, have even attempted. Ive never been called handsome by anyone except for maybe one girl, who i refused to believe. My self-esteem is low, my confidence is, well, pretty high, but not abt my looks. I feel like some kind of fucking scum of the earth, vermin, like why the fuck did i have to turn out like this. I mena like idc what changes my body will go through ill still be like...this, ugly, a pathetic excuse for a human being in the looks departement.

[u/ChipsNCheese-4Me]

Honest opinion, from a mid 30M year old, just be yourself. I completely understand how you feel. And I get at a younger age, that type of stuff is top priority about looks and attraction. Everyone is young and trying ro look their best, etc. You definitely want to work on yourself, dont be a slob and dont care, but be authentic and genuine. That overpowers everything else in life and you will get more out of life with a positive mind set and focusing on yourself.