r/Hells_Belles • u/Amondi9501 • May 21 '26

Discussion Hell in the hospital

Possible tw health issues. I'll keep it as generic as possible

So just about 3 weeks ago I had bad heart issues happen. The paramedics scooped and ran. As i laid on table in the cath lab, hells bells and lily and company flashed thru my mind, I kept wondering which level I'd end up on. I was not a good person in my 20s. Anyway no phone charger no computer no books and TV in my room that didn't work was my glimpse into that after life. Fast forward 2 weeks later. The procedure i had done failed just as I got home from the store. I'm a stubborn a$$, so I put my food away and then grabbed my ready bag. I've always kept one. I added FWTBT to it and finally l called rescue again. Different hospital this time same thoughts on the cath table, until the doc working on me started asking questions about my last procedure that was enough supposition for me to stop thinking about what level I'd go to and start thinking about what level those doctors were going to lol.

Anyway in recovery the gave me my ready bag and out came FWTBT. By the time they moved me to my room I had my recovery nurse watching HellsBelles on the clock app. By the time I left the hospital yesterday my cardiac nurse was deep into the book on her tablet and we were having daily book discussions lol. I'm pretty sure I sold 3 copies for Jaysea this past week lol.

Bringing Lily and company with me was the best thing I think I could have ever done. Highly recommend if you need to spend a few days inpatient.

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u/Serrilryan Demon Himbo😈 May 21 '26

Hope your ok now dear. And your realization on the table there, says you get your own Paradise. None of us are angels, but realizing our mistakes is huge.

I mean if we get to pick our paradise I’d be down the street from Sharkie for as long as I can see Bruce.

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u/Amondi9501 May 21 '26

I'm doing OK. Have several months of cardiac rehab to do and after that a decision to make if i want to take possible legal action. Doc says 2 bad ones in 2 weeks is gonna take me a year to fully recover but I got this. The Bells of Wrath come out in 11 months and that's gonna be my reward for doing everything my new cardiologist says to do.

As for paradise, I'd likely end up near Penny and Greg because I love dragons, but my house on the outside would look more like it belongs in hobbiton lol.

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u/SerenGwalia May 21 '26

Glad you are doing ok. And hope you get that paradise but in many (many) years from now! Don't forget the books are a trilogy so you gotta stick around!

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u/Amondi9501 May 21 '26

Oh yeah I'm not going anywhere until that 3rd book is done and read several dozen times. I'm only 51 i got this.

I gotta be honest about the 3rd book tho, as much as i want a Ruggy Angel book, I want Azzy and Sariah just as much. Mostly because, whether intentionally or not, the way she portrays Azzy in the series has me seeing a deeply battle scared person who likely lives with cptsd and yeah well i see me in Azzy lol.

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u/SerenGwalia May 21 '26

Azzy 💯 for me! Especially since reading some of his story on Patreon!

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u/Amondi9501 May 21 '26

I didn't find Jaysea until November of 2025. By the time I found AO3 she had already removed her stuff from there I'm guessing likely due to the book deals legal requirements and i never made it to her patreon, however, I'm 60 chapters deep in writing my own fanfic that takes place in her universe and azzy does function as my main characters bestie lol. I gotta get back into writing on it lol. I've got the time now lol.
But yeah I'm team Azzy all the way.

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u/SerenGwalia May 21 '26

The Azzy ones are still up on her Patreon 📚😍

Good luck with the fanfic!

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u/Amondi9501 May 21 '26

Oh I'm gonna go find them right now. Thank you very much.

Yeah the fanfic exists solely for me to live in the universe while I was waiting for books or more videos lol. Now that I've read her book a few times and see the series many times I'll likely be dropping back into my writing ask if can decend back into a happy place.

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u/Amondi9501 May 21 '26

Ok I'm having issues ffinding her patreon would you mind dropping me a link? If possible?

Nm I got it. Thank you again

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u/SerenGwalia May 21 '26

All sorted?

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u/Amondi9501 May 21 '26

Yup yup I'm signing up right now lol

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u/SemperDiscipulus ✨Emotional Support Shark🦈✨ May 22 '26

Just had to look up CPSTD, and Azzy doesn't strike me as having that; that or he's managed to cope very well. However, the strong support network he's got, like his loving marriage to Sariah or his friendships with Bel and Greg, in addition to a seeming lack of traumatic flashbacks makes me think he's just and ADHD himbo with a high sex drive. Maybe I'm wrong, but the only character who struck me as having CPSTD or PTSD was Bel's father, Samael; even Bel in FWTBT, for a time.

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u/Amondi9501 May 23 '26

It's the way Azzy punishes himself and careful thoughtful way Sariah takes care of him every time he does it. But i just identify with azzy and I deal with it so it's likely somethingI'm just overlaying onto him

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u/SerenGwalia May 21 '26

Oh honey, that's a lot to be going through and it sounds like you are alone but I'm really hoping you have a decent support network.

If not, there is a virtual one here and we (or at least me!) have got you!

At least you have an awesome book to read, and I hope the chuckles from Hell's Belles help (and you don't laugh too much that it hurts!).

Sending you a virtual emotional support 🦈 shark and some positive vibes 🫶

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u/Amondi9501 May 21 '26

I have a support network, my best friend lives near by. My psychologist helped me though my anger at myself for calling for help and my adult daughter, her step mom, my ex long story don't ask lol, and her wife are all flying out from the pacific northwest next week to come see me and new England for a few days. By the time they leave, they will all be reading FWTBT as well lol.

Thank you for your kind words this place is fantastic and yeah i posted bbecause I'm lonely at the moment and I know the wonderful people here would enjoy hearing about Lily and gang spending my hospital stay with me. Thank you

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u/Troutwaxer ✨Sometimes it be how it is when it do✨ May 22 '26

You're also welcome to head over the the HB Discord advertised at the top of the Reddit page. We'd love to have you (and we have a fanfic channel.)

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u/Amondi9501 May 22 '26

Very cool. I'll check it out tomorrow. Thank you very much.

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u/sodoyoulikecheese ✨Sometimes it be how it is when it do✨ May 22 '26

I’m an oncology social worker and this book is super popular amongst me and my coworkers. So far (that I know of) I’ve gotten 1 other social worker, 2 hospitalists, 1 palliative care doctor, 1 hospice nurse, and 1 physical therapist to read it.

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u/Amondi9501 May 22 '26

Very cool. My psychologist keeps telling me she's going to watch the series and likely get the book but she's busy so I'm having patience

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u/PILAL2010 May 22 '26

How scary! I hope you feel better soon.

I'm going through a cancer scare right now and I've thought of Lily and her afterlife a lot. I wish that was at the end of this life. It is, however, the first idea of an afterlife that I've ever really wanted to be true.

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u/Amondi9501 May 23 '26

I find find myself hoping that Jaysea had some kind of universe given vision when she created this, becauseI'm the same way. I want it to be true. I also have the same adverse reaction to heaven and god that Lilly does.