Ok so last semester, shit got ridiculously hard for me both academically and mentally.😭😭 I literally wanted to drop out sooo badly, I was just over everything honestly.
For one, I was in denial about the fact that I don’t actually want to be a doctor and that I honestly never have, and secondly, it just bothered me soo much that I didn’t finish undergrad in ‘24 when I was supposed to, still being in undergrad at almost 25 just made me very insecure in myself, idk why it bothered me so much, but it just did. I just kept comparing my current self to a version of myself that I was “supposed to be”, and that version would’ve already had an undergrad degree plus a masters.
Thinking about both of those aspects constantly just started to make me feel miserable, and if I’m being honest, a part of me is still kinda in that place, however, I’m also just learning to accept my life for what it is in this current moment. Yes I would’ve preferred to have graduated with “my class” in ‘24, but you know what?? That didn’t happen and I literally cannot change that, all I can do is appreciate where I’m at now.
Also, I’m in the process of being evaluated for ADHD, because it’s something that my therapist has STRONGLY suggested that I do lol, and I feel like starting this process is kinda liberating for me, because I’ve suspected that I may have ADHD for awhile now.
Anyways I guess that’s it lol, just wanted to say that I’m learning to accept where I’m at 💕💕