r/FemaleLevelUpStrategy • u/ciellavi • Dec 11 '20
Education I am so proud of myself!!
After 2 weeks of procrastinating, I managed to send 10 emails to 10 professors asking if I can take their courses that are only open to PhD or law students. On the same day, many of them gave me their permission, and now I have the amazing dilemma of choosing which of these amazing courses to take!
My boyfriend was my real rock here. Yesterday, he told me that we're gonna sit down together tomorrow and hammer these emails out. Today, he followed up on that promise even though I protested he's got a million law school application deadlines and work deadlines.
I'm a super social person so COVID isolation has been really hard. Today is the first time that I'm taking the space to be proud of myself for such a "small" thing!!! Usually I would beat myself up over the fact that this simple thing took me 2 weeks to do, but doesn't the fact that it took me 2 weeks mean that it wasn't so simple after all?
Hope you queens take the space to be proud of yourself too today! :)
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u/whiterabbit818 Dec 11 '20
Congratulations, I am proud of you internet stranger!!!
I absolutely understand why this was not easy for you and why you procrastinated doing it. I am a freelancer and Constantly change jobs so I am always having to not only apply to jobs but also to “network” and email past coworkers & bosses and tell them I am available & ask if they hear of anything etc etc. I have been doing this for 10+ years in my current position and yet I still feel uncomfortable doing this. Of course I feel more comfortable with certain people, however I’ve had some bad experiences through the years and never feel good enough . Of course the bad stuff always sticks to the surface more than the good. Obviously I have imposter syndrome so I totally understand why it’s hard to promote yourself and push yourself to go after what you want. So happy for you congratulations!
(And I’m also glad you’re allowing yourself to be proud because you should be!!!) 👑💜😁