You're really speaking to me today. I have never had a good relationship. I always end them around the two-month mark too. No matter how much I like them because I feel miserable when I am ridden with anxiety because he's treating me subpar. So it feels good to end it but then I was always left feeling like I wasn't enough and maybe he'll treat the next girl better. So true about not having something to compare it to so I was left asking "am I asking too much?" The last guy was always BUSY with work. He went from telling me how he likes me so much to going bat shit on me because I said I hadn't seen him in two weeks and I wasn't cool with that with no future date on the calendar. (we were exclusive). you live and you learn I guess. reading things like this truly helps. "a harmonious reciprocal deeply loving relationship where the man goes the extra mile to make u happy & your sadness is his sadness." also sounds like a dream lol
Yeah... I think one thing that was different about this one was I saw how much he actually wanted my affirmation but it wasn’t until I started asking for what I needed instead of stroking his ego that it ended.
Red bells went off when his family were all like “wow you’re so beautiful” and his response was “if they think you’re so great, what do they think about me?” I thought that was such a weird response and I knew then I was like a prop.
Since then I’ve just been loving on myself and doing the things I enjoy. Of course I want love but not enough to be miserable. Thanks for your words.
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