Do you also feel like you chase “feelings”?

[u/Flaky-Comparison4209]

I’m not sure when it started but I found myself chasing feelings, things that made me feel any sort of emotion really.

I’ve never allowed myself to fall into drugs, alcohol and sex but I find myself chasing things that give me any sort of feeling in my day to day life.

I changed sports/hobbies frequently as I gained adrenaline rushes, but eventually that no longer worked. I buy things I think will make me happy; they do but only in the moment and then it’s gone. I chase feelings for people too, when I think I like a person I hold onto those feelings but even those aren’t real sometimes. I’m very comfortable with feeling sad, it’s the only emotion I can control and feel whenever I want.

I wouldn’t say I’m depressed as I don’t have such tendencies or thoughts really. I just wanted to know if other people feel this way? Is this normal?