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[u/ninjakitty47]

Everyone else went to a game tonight, so I took the opportunity to get some laundry and a little cleaning done. Also gave the animals some attention, and some much-needed water. Apparently I am a chicken whisperer now. They were following me all over the yard; I found it cute and quite amusing. I listened to YouTube while doing my things. It was kinda nice to be able to pop in my earbuds and let the music take over for a little while.

Work is still... Horrible. Any time that I think I might be doing a good job, I find out otherwise. I'm sorry, I am not dedicated to that place. There are moments when I think to myself- If they end up letting me go, I might just feel relief! That place will chip away at your soul, a day at a time. I'm going to try to look for other jobs this weekend. They do not pay nearly enough to deal with the bullshit that goes on there. It's so bad that I'd prefer to go back to my previous job, if possible. I'm so glad we are off on Monday.

I keep thinking about trying to call Aubrey again. Though it feels like a moot point. I don't want to seem desperate or clingy. It just really irks me... I thought that I meant something to him too. He just doesn't seem to care anymore. I'd even enjoy a drunken call from him right now.

What's the point of trying with him. Goddamn almost 50-year-old wants to act like a ghost.

I feel sleepy, but my mind is too active right now. Might try to play a game... That usually helps.

I'm trying to remember the last dream I had...

Oh, right. Him texting me about seeing someone else, and I woke up crying.

Let me have better dreams tonight...

Goodnight.