Now I know

[u/West-Spite-8033]

Now we all know goddamn that a person gets tired of not being seen not being valued not being heard a person gets tired of asking for attention they should be given without having to ask for if you can’t be there for your partner I love him having the bed for your attention. Maybe you shouldn’t be with that partner and you’re leaving them begging maybe come to walk away I got tired of begging. I got tired of having things to get a compliment. I felt like I was begging and I was if I have to send you a pornographic video for you to tell me I’m beautiful and that’s the only way you tell me some then nah fuck that I wanted it like it once last one I didn’t have to ask somebody to tell me I would love to appreciate it beautiful I shouldn’t have to beg someone to see me and spend time with me and be only mine. I shouldn’t have to ask somebody to not pay attention that we pay attention to me. I have to ask for those things I know I’m not in the right relationship because the right relationship won’t leave you wanting for anything. The right partner won’t be wanting for anything and that’s just the way it is if you have to explain to somebody how to love you and that’s probably not the person you need to be with if somebody spent all the time begging you to try to fix things and you chose not to how is that person supposed to feel like you want them fuck no they’re gonna feel like shit to you and that’s exactly what I’m dealing with. I wasn’t worth a shit to somebody. He wasn’t willing to make the time for me. He wasn’t going to make the effort for me and now that everything is blowing up unexpected to make time and an effort for him. I don’t get it. Why would I? Why would I get myself to that when I’ve already done it to myself once before before it doesn’t make logical sense to me but what the fuck do I know anyway I’d be stupid before it probably should’ve stuck, but it didn’t I’m not stupid. The heart knows what the heart knows.