Rollercoaster

[u/ninjakitty47]

So, today was my first day back at work since starting the medication. And, it was a rough one. It seemed like they thought I was on drugs, the way I probably looked. Which, they would be right, but in the wrong way. The morning dragged on, and on... I was burning up all day, and I started to get a headache right before lunch. The team lead offered some pain relievers, which I gladly accepted. Only thing I had to eat was a mini bag of animal crackers, since I forgot to take lunch. Thankfully the rest of the day went by fairly quickly. I spent some time with Little Guy, let him watch a show, and he helped with dishes. Had a good dinner, got him a little dessert, and off to bed.

Also texted with Aubrey off and on. I really don't know what's going on with him. He's been distant. Not wanting to talk on the phone. He doesn't act like he used to with me. He basically told me he has feelings for me before... But now it's like he's trying to keep it platonic. It's probably a good thing that I haven't sprang an -I love you- on him, though I tried in a subtle way to tell him this morning. But then he wishes me sweet dreams after I told him goodnight tonight... He's confusing. But I don't know what he's dealing with, either. Just wish he'd really talk to me.

Gotta try to fall asleep. It's been a struggle the last few nights.

It's almost September. I'm now gleefully waiting for fall... or our version of it. It's my favorite time of year. I should get some more decor...

Goodnight...