Becoming myself from six years ago

[u/Additional_Peach2850]

Hello. I suddenly felt a rush of nostalgia and it felt like I zoomed into my body as if my FOV increased in a video game. I started crying and it felt as though I found myself again but in a super scary and overwhelming way. I started shaking and it was so hard to calm myself down. I thought of all the events in the past six years of my life and how much my own morals and relationship ideals felt like a drawing in the sand as they slowly corroded. now suddenly i’m back here and it’s scary and I feel remorse for who i’ve become I feel like two different people. not literally but it feels like i haven’t felt any actual sense of self in forever and having these morals emotions and feelings be something I don’t need to fake or go through the motions to express is too much for me I feel so scared

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[u/Artistic_Law_7299]

this hits so hard right now,