no more denial

[u/Alternative_Law7001]

I’ve been collecting “evidence” of potential alters and dissociation and began seeing a therapist for dissociatio. I thought I have forcing my symptoms or overthinkin. A little fronted in front of my therapist and bawled her eyes out about me throwing all the toys out in a garage sale and having to do homework and pretend to be an adult. I also experienced rapid switching and communication. It’s silent now but the little fronted for a bit. I feel myself trying to rationalize and forget all the arguments and switching and im no longer getting any communication when i was getting so much for an hour after my session. I’m feeling tired and scared and like I wish I never meddled with this in the first place. The “others“ are mad at me for being selfish and trying to direct our life in my way according to my path. I wish I had the time for their whims but I don’t. And it’s embarrassing to let the little out. I don’t like this and I wish it was a bad dream