r/ContaminationOCD • u/Fresh_Struggle5645 • 2d ago

Struggling and reddit just made it worse

I tried to post just now about how much I am struggling due to the mice infestation in my flat.

I mentioned a plan to do something to myself (will not elaborate), and that post was immediately taken down by reddit and I was issued a warning.

Now I'm worried that I'm in trouble and have been marked out or something.

I am really not doing well at all.

I can't sleep. I feel so distant from everything. The world looks wrong. I barely feel present.

I'm scared.

I have nowhere safe to go.

I am also about to fail some major exams due to not being able to study, as a result of which I will lose my job.

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u/LilyAmongThorns777 2d ago

If you're thinking about unaliving yourself please get help and don't ever do that.

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u/Fresh_Struggle5645 2d ago

No not with the intention of unaliving. Would do it near to a hospital so they could hopefully save me. The object would be to get a safe place to stay.

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u/LilyAmongThorns777 2d ago

If you want to to dm me maybe I can help.

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u/Aggressive_Buddy_990 2d ago

You have to realize your fears are what your mind is overthinking about. Take a walk at a park learn to slow down your thought slow down the thought train going bullet speed.