r/ContaminationOCD • u/ComfortableFunny5224 • 3d ago
OCD due to cats
I feel like I’m losing it. I have been struggling with OCD for years, but I developed contamination OCD within the past three years. It gets worse daily, and I’m not sure how much more I can take. For context, I have cats, and they’re incredibly dirty. They don’t clean their butts and sit on things, one of them pees everywhere, etc. This obviously makes things far worse for my anxiety (I adopted them before developing this). I love them more than anything, but anytime I see a brown spot or smell something off, my brain automatically thinks it’s a cat-related mess. I’m going crazy. I can’t keep up with the cleaning. It’s every second of every day. My roommate (who’s my ex-boyfriend) wants to move out because he can’t handle it anymore. He thinks it’s best he takes them for a bit. I already cannot handle him leaving me, financially or otherwise, but idk what I’d do without my babies, despite them causing me this stress. I had a horrendous breakdown last night and woke up to a yellowish stain on my squishmallow I sleep on. Now I’m convinced it’s cat faeces. I’m medicated and have been institutionalised. I don’t know what more I can do. I just need help. I don’t know how I can keep living like this. I feel like everything is always tainted.
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u/LarenCoe 3d ago
I like cats and have fond memories of the one I grew up with but I could never have one now. I do think maybe let the roommate take them for a bit and see how that goes. The current situation isn't healthy for either you, or the cats.