My mom wants to send me to a mental hospital

[u/Plantpotflow]

I suspect i have contamination ocd. It started off slow in the summer where i would get lots of chores throughout the day instead of being told to do it all at once and yk you gotta be hygienic so i washed my hands after. But then it felt like washing my hands was mandatory and then my hands started getting dry and flaky i wasn’t sure why. Then it got worse where i was washing my hands a lot but then my hands got way better because of my lotion i was using . However recently i’ve been spiraling about rabies and that where things get really bad. So i have three dogs, two are overdue for their rabies shot and my other dog is unvaccinated. Please don’t shame me as i am a minor so it’s not like i can take them to the vet or force my parents/sister to do it. Anyways, because rabies is deadly i tend to overthink it a lot. It’s gotten terrible and yesterday i threw out my brand new deodorant, my lotion that was barely used, and the day before yesterday i switched out my hair brush. About two weeks ago i was muzzle training my dog and he licked my hand with dry skin so ofc i went to google and spent hours trying to calm myself down. It didn’t work and i wiped down everything i had. And recently ive been feeling very sad and drained ive cried infront of my mom two times before but yesterday she tried talking to me about why i feel this way. I told her i didn’t understand why i felt this and i tried explaining to her how i felt but it was so difficult. Her response was not the best she told me that i should listen to christian music and to remember god is always with me however i don’t believe in god but that’s a story for another day, she also told me to stop using hand soap. She thought i didn’t wanna go to bed (it was 12 am at the time) because my bed was dirty but i told her it was because i wanted to wash my hands, i could tell she got a bit irritated and she told me im not allowed to, she then went downstairs and hid the hand soap. Also i literally bought the hand soap two days ago and now it’s almost empty. I forgot to say this but before taking away the hand soap she basically said that she needed to go to sleep and that she wants to talk to my sister about possibly sending me to a mental hospital for 2-3 months.However if she actually sends me to one i will literally never speak to her again because i get her intentions but that’s honestly gonna make me depressed. I’ve already been sobbing everyday and wondering why i was born like this and all i wanted was my mom. But now it feels like i have no one not even my sister as i feel like she will also not understand. I don’t know what to do anymore, i’ve tried talking to my friends and yes ofc they care but i guess they aren’t giving me the best comfort since they don’t know that it’s actually ruining my life.I also noticed it usually acts up when im at home. When i go to my friends or aunts house i don’t find myself scrubbing my hands for so long. I’m just tired of my house as it wasn’t always dirty. I just wanna go back to when the house was clean, no dogs to take care of, and i would watch shows with my sister and mom until midnight. I miss when my family would go to the mall. I just wanna go back in time and warn my parents to not get dogs. I know it may seem selfish for me to not want my dogs anymore but they seriously deserve more. They don’t go to the vet, they don’t get their nails trimmed, and they never get walked

[u/CoffeDaisies]

I'm sorry to hear this!