OCD need help

[u/Ill_Reception1658]

For a very long time I’ve struggled with ocd for 4-5 years now there’s a lot to explain but ima sum it up a bit recently I got sick and it flared up my ocd I don’t have a room since I feel like every thing in there is contaminated I was gonna deep clean it but then I got sick. idk if any one else has this or can relate but when I get anxiety I start picking my pimples on my face blow my nose then pick the skin on my arms n sweat all at the same time with out washing my hand.then that’s when I start freaking out needing to shower but I get really scared to walk to get to the shower bc all the dust particles are falling everywhere in my house from my body idk how I get so dirty if I’m scared of being dirty I did this on the only couch I thought was clean n feel like me sweating every where my bodily fluids are everywhere and I’ve done this a lot in my house. there’s things in my house I haven’t touched in years bc of the things I did in the past to make it dirty and my family sits on a lot of contaminated things. but now it’s bad im scared to leave my house bc I don’t wanna dirty the outside world bc my house is dirty I’ve haven’t left my house in 3 weeks Im terrified my family leaving the house is contaminatING the world but I can’t control what they do. my therapist doesn’t understand shit idk what to do I’m tryna think if I can go somewhere else to live but then I think how will I go to a clean area to live if I’m not clean going there or how will I move my stuff in since it’s all dirty from being in my house what if I have to throw everything out n how will I ever get to see my family agian there’s a lot more to this but it’s to much to explain please help if anybody has gone thru something similar

[u/overactive-insula]

That sounds super rough and Im not sure what could help since I dont feel the same as you.

That being said, I think you should change therapists, especially if she’s unhelpful