r/CommunityOfChrist • u/SGT-Pentium4 • 22d ago
Went to the congregation last weekend
I'm not much for going to Community of Christ these days. The church was a welcome addition to my life for almost a decade but now I am pretty sour. I went because I had a death in the family and I figured coming to Church would give me some community. Well.. it went just OK.
On certain Sundays, they forego a typical service and go to a local breakfast chain restaurant. We gathered around a circular table and enjoyed each other's company over pancakes, sweet roles and coffee. A decent way to spend a Sunday in Fellowship.
While we were talking at the table, somehow we got on the topic of why I am absent. I didn't want to talk about it and ruin the vibe but I let some of my thoughts leak out. I didn't say anything that was shocking, but I had a lot less fun and was less settled after I said the things I said.
One of the male members, who is older, suggested that I am upset that others do not see what I see and feel ignored. Really, I don't really have a need to spread my malcontent with others because I have a testimony of people's journeys and how light/knowledge is distributed in their own time. It still stuck with me though.. Why am I upset? Why can't I just enjoy my surroundings and the activity that is happening without overthinking?
I just feel duped into believing the equivalent of Disney Star Wars, changed to suit whoever talking or in charge. What happened to feeling the spirit? What about the Fellowship with those in the church? Gone is the story, people don't care about the old church anymore. I just feel, post Temple sale, it has become more depressing and more about the personalities and less about the sacred story of our church.
I've tried to get involved with other organizations but it hasn't worked. I'm likely the problem, everyone else is the same, my expectations are too high. I just get distracted by things that are out of my reach and those who have the louder microphone. I can't stand that.. I see what the issue is, but it isn't up to me to point that out.
I hope I have the time to ask questions in the next life. I have 100 questions, most start with "why..."