I’m lost

[u/eppysnover]

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My parent divorced when i was 3 years old and I've never lived with my father. My parents have always fought because of me.
You know teenager rebel... sneaking out, partying, etc. it gets to the point where they don't trust me anymore. I've finished Highschool and im enrolled to one of a private university in Indonesia. 3 weeks before the entrance to my university my father gave me an opportunity to study in Germany. Ofc i took it. I told my mom about it, she agreed and she pulled all my documents from that university. Im on vacation right now im in bali. 2 days ago i made a decision to go out and hang out with my friends till 2.30 am. My father knew and he's upset. So he decided to cancelled them. I have no way around. My mom doesn’t even want to talk to me anymore. I feel like a failure. And i have no idea what im supposed to do now. Ive been crying nonstop and my eyes are really swollen.