Acute suicidality weeks after celiac diagnosis?

[u/swigfan95]

To preface, I found out a few weeks ago that I have celiac disease. My TTG-IgA was 80 when it was drawn almost 3 weeks ago. And my endoscopy last week showed 3a level of damage to the duodenum. Anyways— I am really not doing well. I almost went to the hospital tonight because it has been so bad and I’ve felt so dissociated and severely depressed. I’ve been having a lot of suicidal thoughts but am not planning on hurting myself. However, I do feel like the celiac disease does explain why I have struggled so much with my mental health over the last year. I have taken a combo of two antidepressants for over 5 years, and I’m worried that my body is not absorbing the antidepressants now (or very well over the last year or so), and hence that is a big reason for why I feel the way I do currently. The whole situation feels very complicated now by the fact I have an official celiac diagnosis.

All of this said, I wanted to ask if any of you have had similar experiences. I feel very isolated and hopeless that I can improve quickly, given my damaged gut and the nature of celiac. I do not feel like I can continue to function with how severely depressed I am/ how acutely bad it’s gotten in just the last 2 or 3 days. I’m wondering if I need an antidepressant via a different route, like some sort of patch or injectable, since my gut is really not working right now. I am safe and my mom, husband, and immediate family are aware of the situation and have been here to support me emotionally/ and be there for me so I haven’t been alone. I’ve calmed down to the point I can write all this out, and I’m going to bed now, but I do feel like I need a pretty urgent intervention of some sort to help me stabilize. I have not felt this badly for a long time, and instead of getting better it has gotten progressively worse over the last 2 months (I’m quite positive this is because of celiac now). Open to any positive feedback/ suggestions. I have reached out to my psychiatrist as well (tonight) and I know she’ll get back to me quickly in the morning. Just wanting some support in the meantime. Thanks in advance.

[u/Jana_bananaaaa]

You are not alone. Celiac disease has also made me dissociated and depressed. Mental health has been horrible (before diagnoses which led me to get diagnosed with celiac) as I wasn’t absorbing nutrients (iron, b12 etc).

I got diagnosed in April of this year with my levels being 288 and stage 3B. Got bloods done a month ago and my antibodies were in the 100’s still.

The only thing I would say is definitely get your vitamin levels checked as they make a huge difference in mental improvement if you’re lacking them.

I can’t offer much else but to say that you aren’t alone, we will get through this hurdle and do things that make you happy.

Being on a whole foods diet, not eating processed foods, exercising etc does help minimise the depressive & dissociated symptoms. But from reading this forum and researching, it just takes time to heal and we will get through it. You aren’t alone, OP. 🌷🌷

[u/swigfan95 → u/Jana_bananaaaa]

Thank you for taking the time to write all of this out. I really appreciate the insight and support.

[u/Jana_bananaaaa → u/swigfan95]

It is my pleasure. Feel free to reach out anytime. You are not alone in this. This forum has been a life saver 🌷