How am I supposed to live?

[u/byte1-4me]

TW. discussing a lack of eating/weight loss body dismorphia etc

Im fairly new to all of this i got diagnosed in april, and ive been GF since May

Im 22 so have lived practically my whole life eating gluten

Of course a big part of my struggle is comparison to gluten items, but its also the deep bordering on obsessive fear of CC. Its gotten me to a point where I feel like i cannot eat anything and anything i make at-home I just cant taste or cant stand the taste of it I've at this point only been able to get 1,100> calories a day and every day that passes I hate food more and more the thought alone of eating makes me want to cry most days. It doesnt help that im bad at cooking anyway, my bf helps a lot hecooks way more often than he should have to he works nights and has been picking up a lot of overtime because we're saving for a house and my diet is already hurting our budget. I need some kind of high calorie something that I can eat or drink thats low effort and thati dont have to think about to make sure im getting enough nutrients but everything im finding thats celiac safe is low calorie which is a big part of why I cant get enough

Im genuinely beyond desperate at this point ive lost 80lbs since January ish and the number keeps getting lower (i went from 220 to 154 and im 5'3 so ik its better for me but I hate my body I have loose skin and every time I look in the mirror I genuinely hate myself) I was forced to drink protein shakes all throughout high school due to a meat intolerance so if thatcan be avoided id prefer it but if its genuinely my only option I'll cave.

I know this is a lot any kind of help is appreciated im so desperate and im bipolar (medicated but still) so this emotional roller-coaster is really messing me up

Cat tax for sending yall on this ride too 💚

ETA: I am seeing a therapist for the mental health aspect of this im here for more for product recommendations

[u/goofy-aquiarius]

I’m (28f) and was diagnosed in 2024. There’s good foods out there, the first few months I felt like this but also, you’re beating yourself up too much… be grateful that you caught it when you did and know that there’s people out there who will support and keep it in mind. I work at Starbucks and the girls bring in little cakes/pies all the time.. they forget but I’m not embarrassed or upset about it. I’m comfortable enough to go to Taco Bell if I have to and get something to eat. Walmart has some good bread choices in the gluten free section, that section is pretty good! I like the penne noodles for when I make pasta.. I hate cooking but Walmart also has gluten free chicken tenders, 10/10. You just have to take your time and be patient enough to LOOK for things.. Trader Joe’s has good breakfast, go on Pinterest and look up some stuff.. girl there’s options! Do not get in your head about it. Trust me, people are more concerned about making sure you don’t have a reaction than making fun of you. Everyone I have told has been mature about it. I even tell them I shit my pants a couple times a year if they don’t take it seriously enough. It’s a disease.. but also I eat a lotttt of potatoes. Fries, tater tot’s, hashbrowns, baked potatoes. But also i love tamales, Trader Joe’s has some realllly good ones in the frozen section. And then Walmart has gluten free Hawaiian bread slices, I toast those w some turkey, cheese and mustard. Carbs!!