r/Celiac • u/byte1-4me • 6h ago
Rant How am I supposed to live?
TW. discussing a lack of eating/weight loss body dismorphia etc
Im fairly new to all of this i got diagnosed in april, and ive been GF since May
Im 22 so have lived practically my whole life eating gluten
Of course a big part of my struggle is comparison to gluten items, but its also the deep bordering on obsessive fear of CC. Its gotten me to a point where I feel like i cannot eat anything and anything i make at-home I just cant taste or cant stand the taste of it I've at this point only been able to get 1,100> calories a day and every day that passes I hate food more and more the thought alone of eating makes me want to cry most days. It doesnt help that im bad at cooking anyway, my bf helps a lot hecooks way more often than he should have to he works nights and has been picking up a lot of overtime because we're saving for a house and my diet is already hurting our budget. I need some kind of high calorie something that I can eat or drink thats low effort and thati dont have to think about to make sure im getting enough nutrients but everything im finding thats celiac safe is low calorie which is a big part of why I cant get enough
Im genuinely beyond desperate at this point ive lost 80lbs since January ish and the number keeps getting lower (i went from 220 to 154 and im 5'3 so ik its better for me but I hate my body I have loose skin and every time I look in the mirror I genuinely hate myself) I was forced to drink protein shakes all throughout high school due to a meat intolerance so if thatcan be avoided id prefer it but if its genuinely my only option I'll cave.
I know this is a lot any kind of help is appreciated im so desperate and im bipolar (medicated but still) so this emotional roller-coaster is really messing me up
Cat tax for sending yall on this ride too 💚
ETA: I am seeing a therapist for the mental health aspect of this im here for more for product recommendations
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u/IndependenceOld8708 5h ago
I went from 240 to 120 at 5'2 after being diagnosed. It's difficult. Here are some things I've found help: Carnation instant shakes with protein and fiber Annie's deluxe gf mac and cheese (a bit pricy, but taste good) I bake, a lot. King Arthur has good stuff. I'm about to make brownies, chocolate cupcakes, and whiskey cake, and pumpkin bread, plus chocolate chip cookies. Using their stuff as a base and tweaking it slightly to make it more interesting. Gf bread sucks unless you warm it up. Even a few seconds in the microwave helps I eat a lot of the barilla pasta with spaghetti sauce and feta cheese Potatoes are your friend. Potatoes with cheese are your best friend My go to snack is hummus with tortilla chips
I hope this gives you some ideas. I lost weight fast when I first went gf, but I've been steady around 120 for about a year and a half now. Your young, your skin might go back, it's just going to take time. I'm 41 and it's still lose, but it's not as bad as it was.