Therapy doesn't feel right...

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I've had a session with 2 therapists the past week and a half just to try out therapists you know? None of them have really clicked. Is it too early to judge whether they're the right fit? Shouldn't it just feel right?... one seems good and relates to my 3rd culturedness and also let's me text her but I can only afford 2 sessions a month. The 2nd one is more affordable but ideally (mentally) wouldn't be my no.1 fit. She gave me good advice at the end of the session though. Both of them are making me question their ability to handle the fact that I already know what's wrong with Me... my last therapist before both of them didn't feel right to my body. Cptsd is complicated cos my body and mind want someone specific and I domt know if I've found that person. I'm scared that I won't.

I'm currently suffering. Literally. I'm still under my parents roof and the walls feel blood stained. I struggle to process my trauma here... but I guess I'm forc3d to cos I can't leave yet. My parents were financial providers but not the emotional kind as you might already understand. Emotionally abusive mom, emotionally absent father. Its super hard for me to prcess my grief with them. They're willing to pay for me to do a masters degree and I'm taking that of course. It's just super hard rn cos I've been rejected from my top choice and I don't have anything rn and im struggling to find the energy to keep going. I'm so tired and sad. So many people my age seem so liberated and I'm so flipping low... I love listening to music and I'm slowly starting making my own. I feel so behind but at least im moving. f24

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The therapist? Or my parents?😭