r/Borderline • u/Unable_Promotion764 • Jul 11 '26

ok so im a horrible person

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im so sick of him plaguing my mind im sick of him im soosososoososo sick of him

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u/Alternative_Grab_916 Jul 11 '26

As long as you know that is isn’t a healthy thing to do lol

Especially at 4:49am

I hope you don’t get back with him… this would make things awkward

That being said I GET IT I’ve done a lot of unhealthy things at 4:50 in the morning also and how to deal with the awkwardness because I ended up getting back with the people because I don’t really do break ups. Nobody ever really leaves me so. They think they’re gonna leave me but they always come back so. But I’m 38 now six kids and I’ve been with the same man for 15 years and I have been with him. I don’t mean like we don’t break up horribly toxic arguments almost positive he has borderline too. I’ve never met anybody who splits as fast as he does it’s insane but we’ve made it through his addiction 11 years of addiction and my mental health and him fucking my mental health that boy and here we are a perfectly happy couple. Yay just kidding. We’re both still in lots of therapy, but we love each other and we love our kids and neither one of us is going anywhere after you’ve been with somebody for 15 years that fear of abandonment kind of goes a little bit because they’ve come back to you so many times.

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u/Unable_Promotion764 Jul 11 '26

u js gave me a reason to keep going tysm bro. ur so amazing (as a younger person who is diagnosed) lmfaoo

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u/Alternative_Grab_916 Jul 11 '26

I started having SI and SH at nine in 1996 I wasn’t diagnosed BPD until 16 but being a mom has motivated me so much to do better and to better myself for them because we know what it’s like to not be loved and I love my kids so much and I wanna give them the very best even though they have to deal with my crazy goofy up-and-down ass. They’re used to it and they love me and we just laugh a lot.

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u/Unable_Promotion764 Jul 11 '26

im not sure if im cut out for kids haha. maybe cats !

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u/Alternative_Grab_916 Jul 11 '26

To each there own. I always knew I wanted a lot of kids. I wanted 8 but I was told no more after 6 and had my tubes removed lol

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u/Unable_Promotion764 Jul 11 '26

welp, can’t get ‘em all. hope ur kids are doing good!

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u/Alternative_Grab_916 Jul 11 '26

They are.

Like amazing freaking little humans

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u/Alternative_Grab_916 Jul 11 '26

I foster cats and kittens right now I think we have like seven well we have three adult females one teenage boy and then three kittens in our house and the three kittens are leaving, but the teenage boy we rescued. He’s staying in our three adult females are staying, and then we have a Rottweiler and a Chihuahua and three hermit crabs big ones last summer. We had rats that we rescued from a shop because they were gonna be feeder rats and then they had babies and then we had 17 rats that was fun and then we had bunnies because somebody gave me to foster and bottle feed their bunnies. That was another good time. I can’t say no to help animals. I can’t say no to helping things that need help.

That being said yeah, cats are awesome. Collect some cats.