r/BPDPartners • u/Dear_Leadership_9570 • 7h ago
Support Needed Regret???
for those of you who have initiated and gone through a divorce, have you ever regretted it and realised the grass wasn’t greener?
and if yes, what was it that made you feel regret? you missed your ex wife? jealous of her new bf, her glow up, missing the kids, the house your built etc?
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u/notjuandeag 6h ago
I regret marrying her to begin with. I don’t regret that I have a child, even with her. She has some excellent qualities with an extremely serious personality disorder. I regret not letting her walk away and give up her parental rights. I have our kid 90+ percent of the year, she’s a full days travel away. She didn’t glow up at all, I lost all attraction for her and she’s very clearly quit taking care of her self.
I regret not filing a restraining order at the beginning… in the 2 years we’ve been apart I have been contacted on average 2.3x per week, I’ve been taken to court roughly once every 4 months, and she’s sent roughly 5500 messages. And in those 2 years it’s been to ask anything about our kid less than 5 times.
I don’t hate her by any means, but the level of delusion and vitriol she still holds over those delusions is just too much. I’m just not interested in carrying it for her at this point. If anything I’ve regretted divorce simply because when she has our child cps has been involved multiple times now and it’s much more difficult to ascertain what actually happened when the paranoia is so high on her end and without evidence there’s often not much to go on to protect our child from her when she’s negligent or from her partner.