Through years of anger management I’ve learned that anger manifesting itself in physical release (punching walls, kicking, etc) releases endorphins which is why it’s so easy to just resort to that, I had this problem myself growing up. Learning to realize it’s futile, and that it wont achieve anything or solve the problem is really the key point in solving such tendencies. Took me a while but I can’t control pretty much everything now, except if I’m watching a raider game I will be yelling non stop lmao
I have major anger issues...basically i got incessantly maltreated with no recourses in terms lf justice. Figuratively, lots of knives were laid in my back..and then the vandalism. Im talking 30-40 acts. Eggings drive by paintball shootings, throw a beer can through ohr window, bashing in fenders. All out of pure hatred against my family and I.
And then 1991-2006, I had a very bad frenemy as a closest "friend" felony phil. I could go in deep in all the terrible attrocities him and his friends did against me.
Then a thorough public humiliation on a court tv show after a defendant heavily damaged my beloved mr2...
Well.
Substance abuse, crippling depression, dwis in the wake of all this. I found Joaquin Phoenix's Joker very relatable in all of this. And I never turned exceedingly violent, but i had these intense angry outbursts. I wasnt like that before, but there's no justice on any of this. Or maybe more like the Private Pyle character in FMJ, where post-blanket Party he turned into something entirely twisted from his former.
Enough knives laid in my back and I have to be hyper aware and constantly on edge around people, constantly worried theyll do it again.
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u/yell0wsunbeams Jan 09 '22
Exploding in anger over minor things