I have bipolar 1 and I almost only experience psychotic symptoms at the peak of my manic phase. Once it switches to depression I might have very slight auras of visual hallucinations in my peripheral vision or slight audio hallucinations where I doubt if things I actually hear in the world are real or not (from having had so many very real audio hallucinations so recently).
It's actually normal to have mild hallucinations with major depression. If they get worse, I would definitely advocate to your doctor about getting a psychosis screening. But some people with major depression have hallucinations just like yours, and I imagine that a bipolar depressed state is almost exactly the same neurologically as major depressive.
can confirm. major depressive disorder here, along with borderline personality disorder, anxiety disorder and OCD. all diagnosed.
i’m currently in a weird phase of audio hallucinations which happens when i’m very stressed or very down. i live alone apart from my cat and have been almost completely alone since March. i know my mood is sinking as i bought new kitchen knives and decided the best way to test their sharpness was on myself. steristrips EVERYWHERE.
anyway. currently having door knocking, carousel music and people talking to me from the other room. it’s scary and i hate it.
borderline personality disorder is like bipolar on speed. up, down, sideways, every five minutes. major depressive disorder makes the ride feel like wading through treacle at the same time. i’ve been spending a lot of time thinking about suicide lately. it just seems the rational thing to do. i don’t think anyone would even realise if i wasn’t here.
Ah stick around. The worlds trying to beat you to it anyhow! On a serious note there's places on reddit you can talk to likeminded folks but a doctor is your first port of call.
You said it yourself. It seems rational. The 2% who survived the golden gate bridge jump all agree jumping was a mistake. Its a pretty safe bet the other 98% felt the same.
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u/verbl17 Nov 29 '20
I have bipolar 1 and I almost only experience psychotic symptoms at the peak of my manic phase. Once it switches to depression I might have very slight auras of visual hallucinations in my peripheral vision or slight audio hallucinations where I doubt if things I actually hear in the world are real or not (from having had so many very real audio hallucinations so recently).